clao is finally over. please let me pass haha! and you don't know how someone from class can sabotage you. do NOT make him angry, or you will get killed la basically. and for the sabrina les thing. hahaha. go les with val. i think i'm hyper now can. glad i'm retiring soon. shall not kaypo. hahaha. but tts SOON, not NOW.. like what bear says, "as excuses pile and pile..." BBQ tonight! :)
anyway, i don't like chad michael murray tt much. haha.

why am i happy? i dont know leh. haha im mad. perhaps im just high la. haha. time to do spastic things.

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Insane Priest. Where You Lived: Saudi Arabia. How You Died: Consumption.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

You Are Likely a Third Born

At your darkest moments, you feel vulnerable. At work and school, you do best when you're comparing things. When you love someone, you tend to like to please them. In friendship, you are loyal to one person. Your ideal careers are: sales, police officer, newspaper reporter, inventor, poet, and animal trainer. You will leave your mark on the world with inventions, poetry, and inspiration.

The Birth Order Predictor

there are some days like now where you wanna throw out everything you wanna say in like a few sentences, just get straight to the point and get the message through. but you lack the courage. what are you going to do? i'm not going to do anything. so you will be sitting there hoping some miracle happens. but miracles aren't called miracles for nothing for one. secondly, what do you really hope that the miracle will be? you confuse yourself. it's weird that you link things that you have gone through, people you have met. let time tell.

GO TRY. damn accurate. haiz.

http://www.lovequiz.org/?fuseaction=online.love-test&id=&testid=19266

Quintessentialbrilliant http://www.ageofempires3.com/ says:
have fun for the first few weeks lor

Quintessentialbrilliant http://www.ageofempires3.com/ says:
then go back and reflect why u done well and why u did not do well

Quintessentialbrilliant http://www.ageofempires3.com/ says:
im pretty sure melissa fu isn't such a weakling to stay on the spot and mourn and curse.

.please give me the motivation to study for the chinese exam. shall not be stuck at the 'A' section only haha.
.when i finally blog at the class blog means i've finally recovered.
.i shall not make funny faces for OP.
.i must train hard and not complain so much.
.even if we're not in the same class i still see you all for one more year.
.even if we're in the same class i see you for one more year too. =.=
.must think of the combi im going to take.
.must be a mugger, dun be so kaypo!!
.must not dao people.
.must be more STABiLISED.

haha many things are actually running through my head. quite lost. still caught in a dream. pls wake up to reality. the apprentice is nice. haha whatever. make me smile bah.

oh ya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YICK LOONG AND DAPHNE!!

next year i shall not be so kaypo haha! tt's my resolution.. YES.

omg read what sab wrote. quite touched haha. basically school today was to slack la. and wrote in the long lost class diary. played donkey and got caught. DONKEY. chio laughed at us la. =.=''! 3 more days in 18/05. don't know where i'll go so on la. hmm.. but at least i get to see you guys for a few more days or for the next year ba... wait! where's my farewell? UNFAIR CAN! WHY CHIO's farewell SO FUN?

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yesterday was fun. made me feel quite happy! haha.
supposed to go consult braddy yeo but then went out with loy, jinfu, braddy.. ryan tan, ks and darren joined later. secret recipe cakes! neoprints! then it was the first official time that i played pool which i am really lousy in. haha though some of them had hidden hostility towards one another. it was damn obvious.. oops=x! even though different class, yet closer. proves a fact that we don't have to be in the same class to be good friends..

then at night met at cartel which made me feel damn weird cos the last time i went to the cine cartel i got laughed at quite badly because of my DINING ETIQUETTE by the people who went for the choir concert. aiyo played bridge there and erm i'll never bid until so jia lat next time.. hahaha jiayi,sy,phang,hs,ragen,alan+sab went. in the morning i already got val's message which she sent wrongly to me la. farewell or not, dun care la. haha had fun taking neoprints. =.=''! din noe guys quite enthu in the decoration of neos la! hahaha.
then it was arcade. omg ho chi hoe,keith and i think lester isit, lost to me for the street fighter thing i played last year la. and ho chi hoe even lost to me twice. the only person i couldn't beat was ryan la. BUT!! played this fighting thing and val and sab won me. completely thrashed. hopeless!!! sia suay.. i should retire!
played this game, don't know what isit called la, supposed to score one.. hmm in the beginning quite sian but haha after that don't know played how many times. first time played with phang he quite zai la so we won. i think val and i combined drew. but aft that we played against alan and sab. THRASHED can! arr. hahaha. so basically it was quite fun! yup that's all. chio's farewell tomorrow and im going to have fun la. reality's cruel but you'll have to pay for your own actions anyway.


THE USUAL PEOPLE. shuiyong in lurve literally. ragen the nerd. molely people..

how ar i don't see a direction. i think i wanna be a private candidate and take the As myself and sometimes crash aj for lectures so in the end i'll still be like in aj unless they put a warning sign outside the gate or something that prevents me from going in. then perhaps chio can be my tuition teacher and find more tuition teachers or something. i think i still can get the notes from aj la so will there be any difference? the only difference is that i don't have to go for cca which may be a good thing after all... or should i just transfer school. IF I CAN.

this is fun this is fun. spamming my own blog like nobody's business. just let me type la. i'm damn sian anyway. stupid nightmare. aiya nothing good happens these days. NOTHING! argh. forget it and accept my fate of being extremely unlucky. no, i think i should blame myself. i think chio helped alot already considering it's also his last year. i think teachers have no say la anyway. so, whatever... i have read like many sea gulls now. i think im going to paste all of them on my wall and keep some special ones. or perhaps i should read one a day for the next two years repeatedly. arr. i cant imagine. seeing my whole class still there, yet im not in it anymore. damn sian.
and retaining..
some things will just fade away i hope. like the waves, washing away certain things that may be there. im sleepy and i wanna sleep. i have five days. five days is all i have. 18/05. perhaps it'll be as simple as me going from 31/05 to 18/05. some transition stage yeah? no but i can't bear to lose some things...


give up?

nothing happy has happened for a long long time.
makes me sian.
i think next year i'll be the freaking mugger wearing specs,
socks pulled up literally, carry my bag up high... and look
like a typical ajcian.
cannot cannot. i can whine and whine and whine here and i should. should not bottle everything up anymore. aiya please let me get back the heck care attitude, or just give me back my intelligence. i don't want to be WOLS anymore! encourage me. i have no more confidence left. im afraid of failing my next promos like even now cos next yr i wun have chinese for AO pass. i dun wanna see all my friends graduating before me. i will only graduate with myself and some new people. i dont want laughing girls giggling in my class with me. i don't want my next class to be too enthu. i think i wanna be autistic again. i know no one, i only know myself.

sorry la 18/05. i think i disappointed many people. quite touched when i saw the jiayou on the table. and thanks to all who made the cranes, okay SEAGULLS and jameson's batman thingy+ debbie's flowers.. it was nice. [er, but the box =.=''!] don't know la my mind is in a mess. quite sad if i have to see all of you graduating and clapping for you all for some graduation thing. and i'll miss all of you la. =.='' yes a lot. think i staying in aj to take the combi of math phy econs and geog. and there'll be no more econs mcq. but at least i get to take geog. others whack la. don't tell me after one more year i cannot pass math!! oh man i think i will miss alot of stuff in 18/05 esp the new found bridge. but first let me look forward to the chalet and the genting trip.. oh and let me console myself first......

HOPE has seriously decreased over the past few days. where's my fu xing? hmm. cannot be lucky like before already. im sleepy and i cant think straight. how how how. i'm not alright, who'll be?

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is this a nightmare? hello, wake me up.
supposed to be really sian la. what's with AO Passes. i cannot stand AO passes. got four. really suay. it's VERY SUAY. worst case scenerio you can recruite me. okay econs mcq 23/30, not bad not bad.. after that thanks essay 9/50. aimed for 14/50 also cannot get. this is mad la. luckily for the past few days my hopes aren't tt high. but yeah in the end missed by a bit for econs and i really hope with the help of mid yr and moderation + teachers, still can get A level pass. if not, i cannot help too. after years of worrying i think im like numb over this kind of stuff la. no point worrying leave it to fate. =.=''.
thanks la just came back from my first trip to kbox. lame.
didn't go training. blessing in disguise. haha.
fake laughter.

took this from liyan's album!
omg i heard they graduated on 12 oct! damn saddening leh. not that i want them to retain hao bu hao. it's like omg, so fast.. ong hui yin's not that bad after all la. and the netball court!! haiyo.. when we were sec 1 we were so hiong.. yuru,sarah, shalala and tiffany foo in the pic too! haha wth, tiffany has this CONSTIPATED FACE!!! FUNNY!!!
so many familiar faces i once again see..
then they'll all go their separate ways. no, b div 04 will like go their separate ways. no point going back to school anymore. haiz. but glad b div got their 3rd consecutive gold for north zone this year la. for once i think i really miss mrs. ong hui yin hahaha. liyan's butt!! cheryl tong's stupid kang kang face![okay, she graduated to become sly].grala's shortness[lala~].weizhen's never-changing expression. my partner ANNIE OH!!tiffany foo telling me she's beautiful.shalala and my Mr. MAC.haha damn lame. and sarah's dinosaur face! and yuru, just saw her yest. still top pupil -.-! backtrack a little and i have the LAME FAMILY. princess lame,duchess lame,junior lame, governess lame.. okay, it's DAMN LAME! hahaha. omg omg , i also want to ask everyone to go back to sch with me and pose for the picture above. heh heh.

aiya i still cannot be sure that i have promoted cos i heard they havent finish marking the econs paper and i think i screwed the econs paper after much consideration. heh heh. must let me look at the marks before i believe k. cos, it's quite scary if its 'yi chang huan xi yi chang kong'. oh ya if i still retain in the end, pls dun console me, i will feel worse. haha if you are kind enough to want to console me in the first place!
anyway i'm TIRED from all the walking during the open house. i think erm.. the 1st sch tour was rather horrible. i wasn't supposed to bring people around but in the end i did. i think the parent was quite pissed. and then another parent asked me to speak mandarin. then i was like happily okay, but in the end i asked her whether i could speak english. cannot switch suddenly i think. brain slow. heh heh. not bad. finally some group bonding! peigin, swee chin, jiang ming, anthony, chee keong... etc. NOT BAD! all the girls born in june too, we realised...
oh yeah, while some of the guys targeted girls to give goody bags, me and peigin concluded that the guys who will be coming will be quite -.-''! hahaha. lala! doesn't mean it's that good now either LOL. okay then for netball.. next year's team i concluded will be quite les or quite loud haha! is that good? LOL. wth! they better not be too hiong. LOL. okay that's all. please let me promote la. haha some lucky handshake ar, i know my handshake is priceless, please be honoured. =p!

You Are A: Duckling!

The cutest of the cute, these baby ducks are often spotted in the spring following closely behind their mother. As a duckling you will grow up quickly, becoming one of the adult ducks seen commonly in ponds and streams. Playful and timid, charming and vulnerable, ducklings are nature's very definition of innocence.

You were almost a: Chipmunk or a Lamb
You are least like a: Monkey or a ParakeetWhat Cute Animal Are You?

chio said everybody cept one person promoted. better be true. or else i'll be VERY paranoid la. and the feeling of having and then losing is scary. talked to netballers and designed some netball stuff. haha. i think im the only crazy person not wanting to be in the main 7. aiya, don't know why but the rj match is starting to take effect on me.. i think im quite afraid to play in any match for this period of time bah. hmm.oh ya sonia joined netball. not bad! :)oh ya, farewell assembly today. not very touching leh. hmm. but anyway that's all. tomorrow's ajc's open house! and i'll be a facilitator for the first shift till 1130 i think. and i'll be at the netball booth at 12pm! heh heh.

heh heh. in debbie's house now.. with debbie lying on the floor with her dog. heh heh. i finally learnt bridge. sort of la. played with yiling, debbie and jonathan haha. val was watching tv all the way. played a bit of mahjong too. math results bad. so sian. actually expected, but then i don't want to get math results first ma. demoralising. so anyway, happy birthday loy. and im off to celebrate his bday at crystal jade.!

i just got news training's like starting next week!
oh shucks i think im going to faint if i have to run ten rounds... haha!
oh my god i think it was because of "other ccas starting training today"..
cannot la. today i 'trained' in my house.. those relaxing types and i almost died can!
hoho, spied some people arh. omg, can't believe. hahaha. lala~

wah chinese results lousy la, okay though i passed. how can my summary get 8/20, and my compre 11/20. oh ya, first time tian xie all wrong!! bye bye A la. hmm... profile profiling thing. i'm like half grape half melon. haha what the!! so i'm very exciting yet very boring. wow la. haha, i speak the truth and let the truth speak for itself. heh heh. omg i don't like people to threaten me! a colours awards cert vs. training log. lala. you can help me keep it la if you want.

:)

'ali-ing' with qiao yun this morning made me remember old times.. our weird way of communication which was influenced by 2/4. after promos eveything came to a halt. even my life seems to be moving even more slowly. class outing was a failure. pool was boring cos i don't know how to play it. shopping was okay. the show corpse bride heh heh val and i were the only ones scared. gosh. where can i find people who will just bang the table to vent anger out of the blue, or just tell ya straight to the face that i don't like you. these may all seem difficult to accept at first... but... hmm, everyone's like so fake la. no..everyone's very nice, they play when they get home, and the class outing is like filled with people! heh heh this was what qiuyun and i said. lala~! HAOBA!! heh heh, there is another meaning to this word man. bought braddy's present. a pillow and a poem composed impromptu by val and we drew it in coffee bean just now. and i had to hold that YELLOW PILLOW all the way home. hmm...... school's like a waste of time. it's like time for us to reflect whether we're going to retain anot. just time to make us paranoid.. oh no no, the school's great. yeah~
oh ya, yilong was trying to teach us some chinese chess. huiling,yilong and i erm discussed about someone in the canteen. haha, his tolerance level is really high. i think i have become neutral. i think i'm too pissed to be pissed la. lala~

if you're happy, i'm happy. too cliche. heh heh. yeah yeah bittersweet. ?? madness!


well, happy early birthday to:
JOEL POW WEI WEI
TAN SHAO XUN
MOK SHU WEN
:)!

someone dreamt that i died. lala~!
i don't want to die.
dying is scary.
i don't understand why some people called the police after reading racist remarks.
there's no liberty even in the virtual world.
that's quite saddening la.

must not let the past engulf me.
must not let the shadows of the past become part of the present.
live for today,
not for some dream of yesterday.
must go back to the beginning to find the self i was though.
the one who didn't think too much.

haha tried this quiz i saw on another blog:

Your dating personality profile: Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously. Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile: Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Funny 2. Athletic 3. Liberal 4. Outgoing 5. Adventurous 6. Wealthy/Ambitious 7. Stylish 8. Practical 9. Big-Hearted 10. Sensual

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Funny 2. Athletic 3. Shy 4. Practical 5. Conservative 6. Adventurous 7. Big-Hearted 8. Stylish 9. Romantic 10. Traditional

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

I HAD TWO NIGHTMARES IN A ROW! that's why im here.
the first one was that i failed physics terribly.
the 2nd one was...
i was taking the lift [my grandma's house], before i got in there were people praying and this bowl of rice i think with chopsticks on the table. as i was going down, you iknow you are able to see from the glass panels there, there was this woman's black figure. curly haired. then on the 13th floor i saw this figure again. okay, this is weird. then behind her on the stairs were two zombie like people you know those eunuch dressing.. then she came in to the lift. i was damn scared but i kept praying. she asked me why i was not scared then i said i was and i shouted. i think should be in this sequence. after that went to some fruit shop downstairs with my dad. could sense she appeared. tape ghost. then she NAILED me as in haha using her nails. poked into my hand. scary.
okay, so i think i must not be so afraid.

the exams. i think i sort of screwed up econs essay. i think i have more points than that. maths bye bye. actually hoped to at least O it considering i studied and practised. phy i think it was okay, but then after everyone's constant reminding that it was difficult, i am not confident about it too. so my only hope is that econs book in front of me. i wanna promote. although it's like if i retain i can take geog. self consolation la. liu hao hao told me that if i retain he will treat me to some luxurious dinner... oh well, FORGET IT! ok at least we get our results after open house, but it'll be scary too. please let me promote k! asked braddy yeo to use one of his bday wishes to hope tt i promote. hmm, but he didn't okay. that was not very nice.

hope i can bring ya good news.
oh ya and i bought "my boyfriend is type B" vcd. quite funny. haha i like happy shows, and only happy shows.
cya!