i haven't been here for awhile..there are some people who don't know about my new blog, and i don't intend to publicise it anyway. truthfully it's sad that i lost friends along the way that don't seem to come back anymore. or i guess it's trust issues, or just because i am not worthwhile as a friend. to you if i have tried to explain myself i would say that i have treated you as a friend and i understand how friendships are difficult to come by.certainly we may have started out on a wrong note, i may have been bitchy at the start, but i don't put on pretence for THAT long.
it really bugs me.it does.i don't like to be hated or disliked, who does?
i mean if i don't like you i would say it. like the stupid pigass crass whatever shit head i bitch about her almost everyday.although someone said im falling for her trick but thanks you make my life more enjoyable because i get to bitch about you. although i tried to give some people face cos of connections blablabla but it just makes my blood BOIL when i try to subdue it.i mean right, if you really don't like someone, why pretend to be nice and all? the first time pigass crass talked to me after some incident i immediately looked at another and gave that WTF face? and ohman you can even dine infront of me all smiley WTF?!?!?!?!?!

i admit i love to bitch about people and due to certain reasons at the start i may be damn mean, but i would say through time most of these people that i really talk to, after a while my opinion will change and i certainly take them as my friends. if i bother to explain means i care.

REALLY.and this really bugs me.
okay END OF RANT.

i will always feel the same

says:
machiam ppl queue 36 hrs for iphone
u just thought
aisehs
ppl queue so long
m
must be poower
okay
limbu go queue too
then end up
mmmmm. says:
limbu
HAHAHHHAHA
says:
WALAO! LImBU GOT IT SIA!!
but then chill la
mmmmm. says:
wah why you like that
says:
now antenna chui
haha
no lahs i just tell u
sometimes
dont too into something
u give it more value then it deserve
then u feel that cos the value so high
mmmmm. says:
this is going onto my old blog
says:
u need protect it more than normal
mmmmm. says:
hahahhaa
says:
then in the end
u kick ur own butt nia
i see u friend

i've shifted to wordpress.


love this song!!!!!!!!!!

just had to blog because i'm bored and i've been in hongkong since 26th june 2010 (with one week spent in taiwan).hmmmmmmm.

chicken rice at chatterbox at mandarin orchard with william (atas shit)and sherlyn

I lived with my grandparents since young at a block opposite my home now. Life was just the three of us, plus my aunt who wasn’t married then. My grandfather would cook; it was his responsibility since he was a cook on a ship. My grandmother would do some sewing and stitching, or actually more of the manual work – washing and bringing out the rice to sun (didn’t know for what). My grandfather would bring me home from school after I went to primary school, and before that it was my grandmother who did that. I recall once where she shouted and ran after this school bus where a student actually fell out of the back of the vehicle.

My grandfather was the source of my increased pocket money and other indulgences such as tidbits. Until now I don’t understand how he could find me in primary 2, where I skipped abacus class, an after school activity, and I was in my friend’s house.

Only until few days back that I found out my grandparents were a loving couple. All along while living with them they were fighting over ten cents (in hainanese) and my grandfather (who was the cool one) could not be bothered as my loud grandmother shouted at him. Although, there was once he scolded her back and that was scary.

At his wake, it was when I heard his stories, about how he brought my dad and aunts to movies, how he shared fish with the neighbours, how he made money cooking on a ship and even set up a mini gambling table. Apart from the stories, I thought about death, about life, about how death is the destination. I thought about whether I will forget my grandfather. My grandmother passed away in 2007, took me so long to get over it. Yet now, the memories of her seem to be fading, will I forget my days with my grandfather?

Seeing my grandparents “staying” side by side now, reminds me of the days in the old apartment. I told someone once that i love my grandparents the most, and i think it still stands true. I hope they are happy (I know they are happy) wherever they are. And like what someone said, it should be a celebration instead of mourning, because he lived a long fulfilling life.

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@orgo , esplanade http://www.orgo.sg

serves singapore's best chocolate cake !

I love the rain, especially at night. The tranquillity of it all. The perfect weather. The cool breeze, minus the flooding of course. The sudden downpour reminded me of how i like rainy days.. i think about cuddling under the covers to feel warm. I like the sound of raindrops. I remember how my mom and i waited in the car for dad at night. It was raining, The Platters was playing on the radio and i saw how the raindrops on the window screen formed shadows on my arm. I like how everything seems to stop when it rains.

chuck: we have to see this through to the end
blair: this is the end chuck

on sat @ sharon's bday, and before that, sentosa




HURHUR.

day out with feifei!!! little part one cafe @ thomson, marina sq, esplanade!





ACT CUTE.hahahahhahaa.

FAV PIC OF THE DAY : ME & FARTFACE
during our class outing

"stop shitting"
hahahahhahahaha

awwwwwwww and they're married <3

emo's gone!
sharon's party later!

I read through some stuff that i wrote about someone that i really liked in the past. There’s a folder of thoughts that i wrote, and i guess only with such intense emotions one can write so fluently. I can feel the sadness that i felt before, and i always wonder how i could get through all that shit.

I must say i found someone that i really like, and i would really hope this works out. But truthfully i’m kind of scared, and i don’t think my heart can take such trauma anymore. Guess i’m getting old. I’m willing to give it a shot though 'cos i think he is kind of different. I would say i’m quite blessed to even have him around. Or to have met this person.

Guess tonight must be an emo night. Not exactly a fan of being emo, and though i like to proclaim that this person is nice and that person is cute, I think there are really very few people that i truly want to be with or put the BOOM BOOM INTO MY HEART.

I refuse to believe in the one because the one will break my heart. To many people it may seem like i need him to open up to me but i think it’s the other way round. Don’t really know why i decided to write this i guess it’s to shut the critics up. Or maybe proclaim to the world that i’ve moved on with life, though a tad late, but finally moved on. (So probably you all should stop asking me questions about you-know-who, it’s getting irritating)


It’ll be very disappointing if it doesn’t work out : P

SOMEWHERE ONLY WE KNOW

hello i'm jobless and bored at home.
and bumming around, kinda like it. haha.

gamed for 6 hours straight yesterday, i kinda suck! hahahaha especially CS which made me giddy like crazy.
met some of the 30/06 people the night before. TIME FLIES EH.

for my birthday i just want you to have fun in hk.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW: P

that's philip and the stuff we got him.except for the NZ flag, it's for william.
haha.beach vollyeball yesterday plus mahjong & ikea on monday. oh man, lost to grace and amos! ikea was fun though love the poached salmon !!

class dinner later.
to zouk or not to zouk?

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

xinhe and christie's birthday celebration

then shopping @ vivo with june and sherlyn, moved out of hall, dinner with the vballers.philip's farewell!

im kinda sad cos philip's leaving, hate farewells.



cute props eh! some indian tourist took for us i think! lol.
im kinda sad cos i moved out of hall, though i dont really live there, but i feel a sense of belonging and pride. TEMASEK HALL!
):


and yet another person who says we're incompatible.
):

waterbomb for xinhe and christie's birthday!
crazy philip waterbombs plus waterguns! 2 super ones for me and nick plus two louya ones that were passed around.

i got sprayed like crazy. nick and elson pinned xinhe down and i waterbombed him but xinhe grabbed my leg wth he wanted to pull me down too!
elson stole my gun and i waterbombed his face and he smeared me with cake!!!!!!! rawr i wna cry (kidding) hahaha.

nice ramen for dinner!
met up with yilun and kitying! more outings to come ! (:
IS THERE ANYONE WHO CAN TEACH ME HOW TO BE MUSHY AND DEH? HAHAHAHAHHA!

i went to bake the cake for the may babies with june,sherlyn,sijia,nick and philip today.i actually think sijia is a fun-loving and bubbly person haha. and baking is such a (waste of time shhhh)hassle.hahaha. if you get something that is baked by me, please note that i really love you very much. the cake thing today is not counted though. haha.

the girls had a super long htht session.or more like, gossip session.we just sat there in the aircon room and talked.lol.we all have different views on certain things and people..

and drlove yes,DEADLINE. I WILL KEEP TO IT.(RAWR!!!!!)
cos romance should be an adventure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it should make me dizzy and make me do stupid things.

not all songs are relevant to real life hahaha this is just a random song that i like : P

stupid ragen teh made me take circle line from smu damn freaking far!

SAM LIM'S COOKSHOW

more like, horror. hahahahahaha!

Those who are faithful know only the pleasures of love;
it is the faithless who know love's tragedies-the picture of dorian grey

i'm reading it.
i'm bored, there's no one to go out with me.
shopped on sunday with ragen.
bought too many things, sick of shopping.
went to school to eat lunch and to read.
disturbed william's mugging in the end.
went to vivo to have dinner with sherlyn.
ate too much sashimi.PUPPIES ARE CUTE.random.


suddenly i feel like im a species of my own and that no one understands.

http://superemoboyzzz.tumblr.com/

i got these from andee.
it's damn boring when you have no one to go out with cos everyone's having exams. so maybe i should write a long piece here, yet i dont have the mood to.
i guess tumblr makes the emo beings reveal themselves, and i guess since i kinda appreciate them, im kinda emo too. but i dont like being emo.i think it kinda steals a part of me and makes me sad. (weird but my left thumb keeps twitching these few days ZZ)

i think it's kinda scary to invest all your feelings into one person and you don't know whether this person is 100% true to you or even gives a shit about you. maybe he does give a shit, but to what extent. and does he even know you and when he knows you will he change his mind? you look at the pretty/smart/stylish girls out there and compare them to yourself. and in your mind you ask wth is wrong with his taste???!!!

on a side note, caught stereophonics and ironman 2 last night. shall blog about it when i upload the concert pics.i shall continue watching friends.

i was thinking whether i should change a url but i kinda feel that this is the only thing that i've held on for so long - since 2003 . so i guess thank you for providing me an avenue to whine. it's the end of exams and i think i woke up at 7am !!!!!!!!! what the hell seriouslhy but i think i got used to it. have been watching movies!

yesterday's post exam celebrations.. couldn't feel the joy from nick and william hahhahaha i guess it's cos they still have exams but YEAH MY EXAMS ARE OVER! damn bored.



shopping with feizhen, philip, IRON MAN 2 and then stereophonics later.
ladies and gentlemen, I AM BACK.

i realized that i can google for my blog with what people usually call me instead of my full name.

anyway, i suddenly had a thought. a very random thought, since i got cut off msn again i couldn't discuss with people i was talking to. and it's based on what nick and william were discussing yesterday over dinner. going back to the past.

imagine if we went back to the past, as 14 year olds. i would have been the smartest sec 2 kid in my class, and oh my god i have to go through netball trainings again. but the most important part is that i would search for you. i wouldn't know where you stayed 'cos you may have shifted. i couldn't reach you because your e-mail wasn't created yet. i could only reach you through the clues that i have, the school that i know that you were in. what would happen if you saw me then? would you talk to me in the same way? how would i feel when you look upon me as a stranger? would i want to know you then? if i didn't know whether i would go back to the future (which is the present), would i risk knowing you then. would i have waited for you and go through everything again in order to meet you in the same way?

or would i lead a different life but meet you in the end 'cos we are (NOT WERE lol.) meant to be.

stereophonics on friday can't wait for it actually.


i love this song!
COULD YOU BE THE ONE
Every little thing you do is magic lately
Every single thing that you do is cool
Every little thing you do is tragically hip
Even when you tend to play the fool

i was watching star awards and.... omg this guy is damn cute !
http://www.wretch.cc/album/show.php?i=prajnamark&b=10&f=1029768269&p=3


hahahaha isit me or does he look like someone in this pic? HMMMMMM.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park,
I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie.
I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

SECRET ALBUM THAT ONLY WE CAN SEE (:

THIS IS THE BIRTHDAY GIRL MISS CHARISSA ONG AND HER WONDERFUL YACHT ADVENTURE!










WOOHOO :D




Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chica cherry cola

I don't need to try to explain;
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again, I might move so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I would die to find out

when i say jump u say how high. (my ipod&me plus my notes..welcome to my new life)

now u realize some people nt only look like pigs,but they are really pigs inside as well
-an angry melissa fu

(cant rmb where i got this from, if it belongs to u,drop me a tag)

lol.an uncanny resemblance to chandler bing. lol.

"I have grown to love secrecy.
It seems to be the one thing that can
make modern life mysterious or marvellous to us.
The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it.
When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going.
If I did, I would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit,
I dare say, but somehow it seems to bring a great deal of
romance into one’s life."

- The Picture of Dorian Gray

im listening to moon river, trying to read a little bit of my notes... time seems to move really slowly at this point. sometimes i wonder if two very different people will be able to function together. weren't it be better if both can enjoy the same things together? like seeing the world together, trying to new things, having new experiences.. the world is out there and we're trapped in our little snow globe. i think the logic is the same. getting out there and seeing whatever there's outside and choosing the best place that's for you. you won't know what's best and you shouldn't settle. if the place is best for you, you'll come back in the end.

sometimes i think im childish. actually i think i am childish. in a way i dont want to change. in a way i've decided not to.i've decided that you got to accept me for whatever/whoever i am. i sound like a little kid trying to search for a direction. but im not lost.

sometimes you miss some people along the way. you met them at a wrong time, maybe at a wrong place.. or maybe their hearts didn't belong to you. you wish that the world is a simpler place. where there is love like what love should be, simple and brings you joy. where love is love itself, pure and without complications. you wish that you could love as much as the first time you loved someone. with all your heart; without your mind. you wish you could give as much . you wish you could read the minds of others, are they true, are they wavering, are they serious? you wish you could so you can decide whether you can put in the heart, a fragile heart.

separation. people that i really cherish are not coming back.
a very good friend who went overseas and is not even coming back for summer.
someone whos very important and we spent our days talking about the future.
talking about countless possibilities and the life to come.
sitting by the playground or at the shopping centre, at a corner.
i guess people move on, why do they move on without me? they're supposed to move on yes,
with changes in their life, but dont they have a little place for me?
i don't think im expecting too much.. just a little greeting will do, without prompting.
maybe my expectations for her are a little higher. maybe it's the geographical distance?
maybe the differences in culture?

i am actually quite sad that the vballers are graduating. i hate goodbyes. i kinda hate change too. i cannot stand it that it's the end of the module. there's going to be a change to the lecturers, my timetable, lunch, and of course... the people that i meet for lunch everyday. of course, vball will continue so i guess i expect all of them to come back! a pity that im just starting to know some of them. but i guess we can continue to go out and all. (: just that i will be in hongkong when they really graduate. so sad.



check out william's finger HAHAHAA.
let's have another vball chalet (:

papertissue.tumblr.com

always, there's someone who says that i dont know what i want.

there are perfect scenarios in my head though. being under the covers on a rainy day. dancing in the rain at a corner of a street when no one's watching, in the middle of the night illuminated by a single lamp post.

and of course this post was triggered by the rain.i kinda like rainy days.



and HMMMMMM. that's funny: P and so true! hurhur!

"I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone,
but I can tell you what it is for me;
love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to
be with them more than any other person, love is trusting
them enough to tell them everything about yourself,
including the things you might be ashamed of,
love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone,
but still getting weak knees when they walk into a
room and smile at you."

http://justbesplendid.tumblr.com

some tumblr stuff:


http://472239364.tumblr.com

not a big fan of korean stuff but this song is really really really sweet.

LOL
http://poeticheartache.tumblr.com/

i wna go with the flow

ting ting said im a much happier person compared to the first time she met me.

hmmmm. i guess school's much better now with company. (:
though these few days i have been doing a few things that may mislead people but seriously, do not doubt me.

vs.



love 'em both!

keppel bay!

yumzzzzzz!

i like aliens especially the one who doesn't want to be my toyboy.so sad ):

Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself home to you


i shall be honest and say that i thought i was the exception and that one day you will change your mind about walking away and maybe give me a logical explanation. or maybe i was just waiting for the day things could be like before because you have ben great part of my life; and things will always be okay even when we haven't been around each other much. sometimes certain things remind me of you.truthfully, many things remind me of you. there are traces here and there that cannot be erased. i have been contemplating whether i should even write this post, or rather, i have been afraid of writing this post. though i really want things to be like before, but it seems like it can't anymore. but when i asked whether i could talk to you months ago i had lost the ihg finals by two goals and i really wanted to talk to you. i think for some time i have been taking you for granted in a way i thought that you will be there to listen to my rants , evil little plots or even gossip about other people.you have been in so many points in my life that it is really difficult to uproot you or ignore you although this may make you more pissed but can you please please please erase this part. maybe someday.

now for my disappearing act.

“I wanted to become the seeker, the aroused and passionate explorer,

and it was better to go at it knowing nothing at all, always choosing the unmarked bottle, always choosing your own unproven method, armed with nothing but faith and a belief in astonishment.”
Pat Conroy (via thresca)
http://happythings.tumblr.com/

what makes me happy
not so long ago someone told me that whatever you do, the most important thing is to be happy. truthfully with you around, it'll be much better.
though you won't feel the same way.


so anyway, someone told me to write what made me happy today so here goes:-
1) completing angry birds trial hahahahhaa
2) listening to someone sing some korean song and shouting STUPID IN KOREAN and goo jun pyo (WHAT THE SHIT)


er like no more.hahahaha.
may tomorrow be a happier day. (:

http://beautiful.tumblr.com/

pictures taken from papertissue.tumblr.com


was looking for a new desktop background when i got stuck on this one. it is kind of a contradiction since photographs are supposed to be clear. like what they say -a picture speaks a thousand words. but in this case it triggers a thousand thoughts. sometimes the lack of clarity brings infinite possibilities. uncertainty brings fear but also an adrenaline rush. it's how you see it, how you put it across. how you make the best of what you're given.



i like melancholy. i like the tinge of sadess that comes with it. makes me feel kind of alive because there's a certain pain. it doesn't matter whether it relates to me. monochromatic colours bring certain images to its most simple state. sometimes colour confuses the person looking at it. sometimes the lack of colour brings the photograph to a standstill. and don't all photographs stop time for that instant?

my english is deteoriating drastically. i have no idea why but i can't seem to string proper sentences together. and my spelling sucks. it doesn't help when readings are so tough; i wonder whether it is the language or the content that is deterring me from understanding them.



baby i can see your halo

a good friday with the volleyballers @ 15 mins @ lasalle!
nice place with jazz music, not-so-nice food though. hahaha. then it was tau huay at the roadside with flying cockroaches!!! some pics we took. the first one: FIREBALL AND PHILIP BEING VERY AMAZED HAHAHAHA. i wonder why philip likes to take nic's close up shots. HMMMMMMMMMMM.

hoting's fat ass HAHAHAHA.

post april fool's.

like someone confessed over msn. damn fake. and if u refer to the above, there's a ANTI-MEL event what the shit! i was quite pissed last night since i had to do a 20 page report and had no time to like entertain the EVIL SIDEKICK. but okay thanks very much to all who said they're gonna attend. GOODBYE AND GOOD RIDDANCE : P there's one unknown guy on the attending list what the shit!!!!!