when it all seems to change.
friendship,kinship,love,jobs,interests,dreams.
how can my fickleness be compared to this ever-channging world?
by choosing like all 3 schools, all 3 extremely different courses as first choice for each school, shows how confused i am!
where are my dreams?
WHAT are my dreams?
where do i go from here?
a whole new life, with a bunch of new friends, and new interests?
drift with the crowd, get a degree, find a job, pay the bills.
live my life,the normal way?
ORDINARY.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
OHKAY IM MAD I JUST DELETED MY FIRST CHOICE-> COMM.STUDIES DUE TO MY LACK OF CONFIDENCE AS A SPEAKER. AND I WANT TO AVOID THOSE INTIMIDATING PEOPLE THERE. MELISSA THE ENGINEER. WTH!
better in time -leona lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
真奇怪. 这首歌,听了好想哭
cheena people for cheena course. here i come! >:(
better in time -leona lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
真奇怪. 这首歌,听了好想哭
cheena people for cheena course. here i come! >:(
Saturday, March 29, 2008
time flies. these two words sum it all up. our lives, so different. our school, such a long time ago. pe lessons, history.netball trainings, can't remember the pain. (i am afraid i will pull the team down, and tts why i dont go back, i am not kidding)
can you please tell me why.
and then tell me are we going to continue to be like this.
alright, alright.
can you please tell me why.
and then tell me are we going to continue to be like this.
alright, alright.
Friday, March 28, 2008
let me start the blog post with a random shot of the sunset. it's like taken at my doorstep. i wonder when we can have picnics at pierce reservoir again. maybe it'll be one year,maybe two..or maybe five. maybe never again.tsk. i just bought like so much stuff. shopped with david! OMG rite haha. relief teachers shopping spree!
The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me 
please note her guitars. they are so cool. and the part where she recorded her song using some guitar of hers.. that's like so cool man! decided not to take so many pics cos my camera isn't as powerful as ryan's. LOL. shall ask shuiyong to send me the other pics soon.:D
this guitar is oh-so-cool!
her band.they were saying the back-up singer is like prettier.
butKT TUNSTALL IS COOL! OMG!
the damn cute guitarist. LOL.
caught this weird expression on camera.
GUESS WHAT, i bought this cd today! why? cos i was mesmerized by her! i was at her concert. thanks lim shuiyong!!! free standing tix, $140 each! anyway, asked samantha (lim) along ! HOHO. shuiyong's fren ryan was there too.he was kinda high la. hahaha. anyway my favourite song is "other side of the world" from her first album la. super nice. how i hope our love wouldn't fade, how i wish it was simple.
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me
please note her guitars. they are so cool. and the part where she recorded her song using some guitar of hers.. that's like so cool man! decided not to take so many pics cos my camera isn't as powerful as ryan's. LOL. shall ask shuiyong to send me the other pics soon.:D
this guitar is oh-so-cool!
her band.they were saying the back-up singer is like prettier.butKT TUNSTALL IS COOL! OMG!
the damn cute guitarist. LOL.
caught this weird expression on camera.omg, she told like many super cold jokes la. haha.
and the night ended with suddenly i see! HAHA CROWD FAVOURITE.
today, a boy in my class declared his love for me hahaha. that's kinda scary. okay. he wrote this on the board. er his spelling isn't really good. he made me read this in front of the class and then declared his love. hahah while david was like laughing his head off, seriously!
oh man, i spent alot of money today. BUT YES LA, IM NOT BANKRUPT!!HOHOHO.
and the night ended with suddenly i see! HAHA CROWD FAVOURITE.she came back for the encore. more of like intermission cos she sang a few
songs afterwards. OH MAN SY AND RYAN GOT TO TAKE PICS WITH HER!!!
met her at food republic. WTH? anyway, i got her autograph too:p THANKS
SHUIYONG AGAIN!!!! AHHAHA!!
today, a boy in my class declared his love for me hahaha. that's kinda scary. okay. he wrote this on the board. er his spelling isn't really good. he made me read this in front of the class and then declared his love. hahah while david was like laughing his head off, seriously!
oh man, i spent alot of money today. BUT YES LA, IM NOT BANKRUPT!!HOHOHO.
KT TUNSTALL ROCKS, HO CHI HOE, AREN'T YOU JEALOUS!!!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
SCHOOL.
excursion-.- (somewhat) to ntuc!
excursion-.- (somewhat) to ntuc!
dont you think issac has some rich kid feel lol. his hair looks damn familiar? haha. with youying, from my form class..
they were checking out different prices for the different brands..RANDOM
darren's birthday chalet. damn nice la the place. like some apartment!
one of the group photos we took. :D
darren's birthday chalet. damn nice la the place. like some apartment!
one of the group photos we took. :Dmore pics to upload because sansan is leaving tomorrow!
went for dinner with her just now plus ice-skating! damn,
i fell down twice so sia suay. the second time, siti came to my rescue by banging into me while im still on the ice, then sandhya put her weight on me so i fell down again. thank you julia tan for helping me up hahahaa. damn it david ong he cursed me la! and what the hell lulu your reply really made me damn disappointed i was so high at first la! tsk tsk. sigh~ upload pics soon they're with weiwei. how random. haha. SIGH! WALKED TO THE BUS STOP WITH SANSAN FOR THE LAST TIME (AT LEAST FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS!)
OMG LAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. :(
Sunday, March 23, 2008
potluck at zhiwei's house last night. before that jelly,zw and i watched step up 2! super nice la! super catchy~ haha it became comedy cos i remember braddy yeo putting his hand outside darren's car while blasting "LOW" and singing "apple bottom jeans, boots with the fur"... LOL!!! SUPER BENG LA!!! the whole car was vibrating!!
okay so we were like 1 hour late cos it was raining. and we played a little mahjong,cranium,heart attack! cranium always makes me feel stupid. OOOOH SITI MAKES SUPERB BROWNIES! that were finished by farmer -.-"! SIGH.shall post the group pics when xx comes online. ER HERM ** cough cough. LOL!
ice-skating tmr!!
sometimes i wonder how things changed so much.
Friday, March 21, 2008
I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
nice song. these few days i've been feeling pretty calm, no sudden fluctuation in emotion, just enjoying every hour, especially in the mornings where i have to wake up at an unearthly hour at 6am. i have been late from mon-wed, and for thurs i was kinda motivated to show fellow relief teacher mr.ong that i can be early (for once!).
i have been thinking of my grandma these few days, and i still cannot believe that she is gone, maybe this sounds very cliche, but i guess it's true that she will stay in our memories, and our hearts.
love; innocent love,sisterly love, kinship, romance, love for one's country..
david was telling me that there is something that is similar in everyone, no matter what level of intelligence one has, and it's love. it's natural instinct. then he asked me isit normal people that are complicated or isit the kids there, are they really that simple compared to us? this set me thinking.actually whatever the kids are showing to us in terms of behaviour, it's just an exaggerated form of what we feel. the frustrations, the smiles... when they greet the teachers, it's genuine. i am ashamed of my weak smiles at them. and us being complicated. i guess we are. because of what we go through. because of what we can comprehend. but didn't we start off as innocent little kids too?
haha. i think the past week has been a fulfilling one. everyday david and i will have different comments about the school.confused-->amazed-->motivated! haha. of course there were LOW times too. but their cca day is super fun la. on thursdays, it's like non-competitive and full of SPIRIT! woohoo~ HAHA.
OMG LA I SOUND LIKE SOME OLD AUNTY. anyway, looking forward to:
- ice-skating!hopefully soon before i forget how to ice-skate
- step up 2! if i go tmr :p
- potluck tmr!
- trip to california on 11th june, till 22nd i think!
- visiting margaret if i have the money. I REALLY WANNA GO! :(
- shoppinggggg when i get my pay. 28th 28th 28th!!
- charissa redskinny a.k.a tootsie OWES ME A TREAT!
I DONT LOOK FORWARD TO SANDHYA LEAVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Yes, im typing this on word and then transferring it to my blogger account because I am in school now. Things are pretty different and seriously an eye-opener. It’s already my third day and many things have already happened. Such as, boy winking at me which I almost puked out my lunch.. also, I have seen the smartest (They can do word problems!!) and the slowest (They cry when they cannot draw something!) of them all.
The difference is truly amazing, and it makes you feel blessed. Im also lucky that my friend of five years mr. david ong is also here with me as a relief teacher. Or else, I will be so pitiful again (like my previous job). Although the food kinda sucks, it is cheap. Tsk. Why am I typing like this. I think my students think I am boring because I make them do worksheets. Math problems that I myself tend to knock out when I look at them. Sigh, I almost slept during a meeting and also during another math lesson when my mentor was teaching. Haha. Planning lessons seemed fun. Note the past tense.
No, it’s not fun at all.
I have no creative juices (seems to be like it). Okay.i really learnt a lot these few days. Teaching, thinking, interacting.
Enough of my VERY INTERESTING job (not being sacarstic), went to darren’s 21st birthday chalet. His friend is seriously damn funny. Plus I went kbox last night. Although I am like heading for bankruptcy, I predict more fun times to come. HOPEFULLY. Okay, I shall go home now.
P.s: And I don’t want to care about you already.
The difference is truly amazing, and it makes you feel blessed. Im also lucky that my friend of five years mr. david ong is also here with me as a relief teacher. Or else, I will be so pitiful again (like my previous job). Although the food kinda sucks, it is cheap. Tsk. Why am I typing like this. I think my students think I am boring because I make them do worksheets. Math problems that I myself tend to knock out when I look at them. Sigh, I almost slept during a meeting and also during another math lesson when my mentor was teaching. Haha. Planning lessons seemed fun. Note the past tense.
No, it’s not fun at all.
I have no creative juices (seems to be like it). Okay.i really learnt a lot these few days. Teaching, thinking, interacting.
Enough of my VERY INTERESTING job (not being sacarstic), went to darren’s 21st birthday chalet. His friend is seriously damn funny. Plus I went kbox last night. Although I am like heading for bankruptcy, I predict more fun times to come. HOPEFULLY. Okay, I shall go home now.
P.s: And I don’t want to care about you already.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
doubt haunts you.
i chanced upon an acquaintance's blog. set me thinking.if it's dead,leave it. my limited vocabulary doesn't allow me to illustrate my frustration. sometimes i try to think from the other side,then i get a headache because of all the complications.
BUT, no, it's actually simple.
eh you,DISAPPEAR!
i chanced upon an acquaintance's blog. set me thinking.if it's dead,leave it. my limited vocabulary doesn't allow me to illustrate my frustration. sometimes i try to think from the other side,then i get a headache because of all the complications.
BUT, no, it's actually simple.
eh you,DISAPPEAR!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
NOT EMO-ING!just wanted to write something about B.A.A!HAHAHA.:D
frens forever,ER WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE.hahaha.ooops i copied this from someone. HAHAHA.
NUS open house.
so, we had our first BAA outing, apart from the national day preview outing we had in 2006.
friends forever?how cliche.
sounds damn sacarstic here. FRIENDS FOREVER.wah.haha
will we stay together or drift apart.
BAA.aggressive bimbos anonymous. the random group we formed while sitting in class during some break. even the name of it is random. random people, random place,random name, random clique.
used to have this person of the day thing for my blog, here're the three other people from my clique who have been important, and are important. lol.
SANDHYA:
has been there for me through my rantings,blabla(all the shit),listened to me whine about the same old stuff a thousand times. got ps-ed by me a few times for mugging sessions.but we shared times like stoning and looking at...er children.don't know why she likes children so much..haha nice to make fun of, although she condemns my english (eh B for GP) hahaha. the one who goes to toilet with me (cept for julia tan, that's a different story).ate so many ORANGE ROUND THINGIES with me in school shucks forgot its name.she's my witness for my wedding(don't think i will have one).haha she gave me this e-mail thing that recorded many happenings, and i was grateful and touched because i almost forgot wat was it like to be appreciated (:! EH BUT SHE PS ME FOR JAP LESSONS. -.-"!ohya and we share our thoughts, although i think my thoughts are kinda shallow. "expect change", i told her today. cos im going to be an enthusiastic kid. LOL. how random.
MAJELLA:
we wrote letters in j1.although it was about mostly "toilet and greening" bla.lol.then i stopped replying her. she gave me these pretty postcards while i wrote on foolscap!haha OOOPS. then for a while we weren't so close. probably because of me.OOOPS again. then, i don't know why after As we became closer again. maybe cos we had alot to complain about. and she kept showing me her pretty friends -.-"! she's blur but actually damn smart. and pretty also. HAHA HER BLURNESS BRINGS US JOY LA. damn nice to shoot her!please have more confidence la majella loh!hahah OOOMG she also has a wild side, yet to be unleashed.. lol! today she just asked some real estate guy at nus whether he is going to be a real estate agent. THATS TYPICAL MAJELLA LOH, WOLS. hahaha. but she's damn cute. HOHO, im nice :D!
ZHIWEI:
hahaha omg this one damn hard.i realised i ps-ed him alot in j1.must be the ugly hair and act cute twist sign.i rmb once i told him to meet "tmr" and i thought it was a sunday. but actually it was a saturday. so he waited at the mrt the next day. quite funny.used to think he's some cute and innocent kiddo.but guess not la.used to think he look like bobdog!the only clique mate i always go out with because the others had to go home -.-"! tuition/supper mate too. bought me this BEAUTIFOOL shirt for grad, was SUPER DOTS.cannot stand the way he bowls and plays DDR.he even bakes!=.="!GP A. hahaha omg im listing what he does but i guess he brings JOY to the clique in a sense he is quite enthusiastic about some stuff(that no one else is enthusiastic about) HAHAHA.everyone gives him the diao face. QUITE FUNNY.we wanted to find his DEEP SIDE actually, but we sort of failed.haha beneath that shopaholic facade, there should be SOMETHING la.hopefully. hmm realised tt we hardly talk about personal stuff at all (hello acquaintance.i dont know you well at all:p) . tsk.HE DECREASES MY APPETITE FOR SOME WEIRD REASON.except for today.hahaha!
WHERES THE CLIQUE BOOK. there's sandhya's scandals,majella's lag comments,zhiwei's ugly drawings and of course, STUFF BY ME!heh.
that's BAA.
so, we had our first BAA outing, apart from the national day preview outing we had in 2006.
friends forever?how cliche.
sounds damn sacarstic here. FRIENDS FOREVER.wah.haha
will we stay together or drift apart.
BAA.aggressive bimbos anonymous. the random group we formed while sitting in class during some break. even the name of it is random. random people, random place,random name, random clique.
used to have this person of the day thing for my blog, here're the three other people from my clique who have been important, and are important. lol.
SANDHYA:
has been there for me through my rantings,blabla(all the shit),listened to me whine about the same old stuff a thousand times. got ps-ed by me a few times for mugging sessions.but we shared times like stoning and looking at...er children.don't know why she likes children so much..haha nice to make fun of, although she condemns my english (eh B for GP) hahaha. the one who goes to toilet with me (cept for julia tan, that's a different story).ate so many ORANGE ROUND THINGIES with me in school shucks forgot its name.she's my witness for my wedding(don't think i will have one).haha she gave me this e-mail thing that recorded many happenings, and i was grateful and touched because i almost forgot wat was it like to be appreciated (:! EH BUT SHE PS ME FOR JAP LESSONS. -.-"!ohya and we share our thoughts, although i think my thoughts are kinda shallow. "expect change", i told her today. cos im going to be an enthusiastic kid. LOL. how random.
MAJELLA:
we wrote letters in j1.although it was about mostly "toilet and greening" bla.lol.then i stopped replying her. she gave me these pretty postcards while i wrote on foolscap!haha OOOPS. then for a while we weren't so close. probably because of me.OOOPS again. then, i don't know why after As we became closer again. maybe cos we had alot to complain about. and she kept showing me her pretty friends -.-"! she's blur but actually damn smart. and pretty also. HAHA HER BLURNESS BRINGS US JOY LA. damn nice to shoot her!please have more confidence la majella loh!hahah OOOMG she also has a wild side, yet to be unleashed.. lol! today she just asked some real estate guy at nus whether he is going to be a real estate agent. THATS TYPICAL MAJELLA LOH, WOLS. hahaha. but she's damn cute. HOHO, im nice :D!
ZHIWEI:
hahaha omg this one damn hard.i realised i ps-ed him alot in j1.must be the ugly hair and act cute twist sign.i rmb once i told him to meet "tmr" and i thought it was a sunday. but actually it was a saturday. so he waited at the mrt the next day. quite funny.used to think he's some cute and innocent kiddo.but guess not la.used to think he look like bobdog!the only clique mate i always go out with because the others had to go home -.-"! tuition/supper mate too. bought me this BEAUTIFOOL shirt for grad, was SUPER DOTS.cannot stand the way he bowls and plays DDR.he even bakes!=.="!GP A. hahaha omg im listing what he does but i guess he brings JOY to the clique in a sense he is quite enthusiastic about some stuff(that no one else is enthusiastic about) HAHAHA.everyone gives him the diao face. QUITE FUNNY.we wanted to find his DEEP SIDE actually, but we sort of failed.haha beneath that shopaholic facade, there should be SOMETHING la.hopefully. hmm realised tt we hardly talk about personal stuff at all (hello acquaintance.i dont know you well at all:p) . tsk.HE DECREASES MY APPETITE FOR SOME WEIRD REASON.except for today.hahaha!
WHERES THE CLIQUE BOOK. there's sandhya's scandals,majella's lag comments,zhiwei's ugly drawings and of course, STUFF BY ME!heh.
that's BAA.
frens forever,ER WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE.hahaha.ooops i copied this from someone. HAHAHA.
hello today was a mad day. topman shopping. hahaha. more pics on facebook! go see. think im a pretty boy.lol. while charissa's tootsie, the MOST TOOT BUNG EVER LA. LOL.
back to normal. lol.
back to normal. lol.on the other hand, i see a serious need to move on and stop being stuck in this fantasy of mine. grow up, accept that youre 20 this year. accept that some things will not happen the way you want them to be. DONT LOOK BACK. DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.DONT LOOK BACK.
Friday, March 14, 2008
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep
miracle products.network businesses.brainwashing.
i don't think i want to be part of it.
was particularly pissed with my parents, now my US trip is in danger.absolute sadness. god bless me.and then they dont want me to share a room with my cousin, who's a guy my age. dots.im going to faint. think they will faint if they found out who were my room mates for the genting trip! HAHAHAHA.
coming up with other plans with yuhan.damn it.bloody pissed with my parents. >:(
But now I've gotten in too deep
miracle products.network businesses.brainwashing.
i don't think i want to be part of it.
was particularly pissed with my parents, now my US trip is in danger.absolute sadness. god bless me.and then they dont want me to share a room with my cousin, who's a guy my age. dots.im going to faint. think they will faint if they found out who were my room mates for the genting trip! HAHAHAHA.
coming up with other plans with yuhan.damn it.bloody pissed with my parents. >:(
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
<3>
cross dressing with char ??? HAHAHAHA.
MY EVERYDAY LIFE IS SIMPLY SO AMAZING.
LULU ROCKS!!! :D
You only stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart
You only waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might call you from my heart
But it might be a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
watched L change the world..like finally. L is so damn cool hahaha.
i should not listen to anyone and focus on what i feel. that's most important isn't it?
4:23PM
i was feeling so high and happy, but now im feeling so sad.
blog hopped a little and i saw some pictures of ajc, and of random things.
i seriously miss many things,many people. maybe cos of my LONGGGGGGGG stay in ajc.
i totally miss the toilets in ajc hahaha so many funny things happened there and ITS LIKE OUR USUAL HAUNT.
i miss the afternoons where we stay in school for cca
(i will be praying that it rains).
i miss spying on people from afar.
i miss seeing people play volleyball OMG damn shuai sia.
i miss saying hello to random people.
i miss walking from the lecture halls to the canteen, trying to spot whether you are there.
i miss stoning and gossiping in the reading room.
i miss playing cards and doing random things in the nexus (before it was renovated).
i miss the piano in the audi and the people playing it.
i miss writing in the clique book!
i miss talking in LT4/LT2/LT1/LT3!
i miss trying to stay awake in LT5 during geog lectures.
i miss class basketball sessions!
i miss sitting around in the canteen.
i miss going out after school!
i miss how we cherish the limited time we had to stone/look at other people while mugging at khatib!
i miss bus rides home after tuition, not to mention SUPPER!
i miss the way we laughed at ourselves during math tuition where everyone from AJC got U, while other people got As.
i miss the breaks we had!
i miss the times we spend together la!which i don't think will be possible EVER AGAIN. as our similarities decrease, do not drift away.
p.s: I DONT MISS PE.
i should not listen to anyone and focus on what i feel. that's most important isn't it?
4:23PM
i was feeling so high and happy, but now im feeling so sad.
blog hopped a little and i saw some pictures of ajc, and of random things.
i seriously miss many things,many people. maybe cos of my LONGGGGGGGG stay in ajc.
i totally miss the toilets in ajc hahaha so many funny things happened there and ITS LIKE OUR USUAL HAUNT.
i miss the afternoons where we stay in school for cca
(i will be praying that it rains).
i miss spying on people from afar.
i miss seeing people play volleyball OMG damn shuai sia.
i miss saying hello to random people.
i miss walking from the lecture halls to the canteen, trying to spot whether you are there.
i miss stoning and gossiping in the reading room.
i miss playing cards and doing random things in the nexus (before it was renovated).
i miss the piano in the audi and the people playing it.
i miss writing in the clique book!
i miss talking in LT4/LT2/LT1/LT3!
i miss trying to stay awake in LT5 during geog lectures.
i miss class basketball sessions!
i miss sitting around in the canteen.
i miss going out after school!
i miss how we cherish the limited time we had to stone/look at other people while mugging at khatib!
i miss bus rides home after tuition, not to mention SUPPER!
i miss the way we laughed at ourselves during math tuition where everyone from AJC got U, while other people got As.
i miss the breaks we had!
i miss the times we spend together la!which i don't think will be possible EVER AGAIN. as our similarities decrease, do not drift away.
p.s: I DONT MISS PE.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize
What I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now
Take time to realize
Oh oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize
This all could pass you by
Didn't I tell you.
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize
What I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, but
It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you
If you just realize
What I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Sunday, March 09, 2008
nobody said it would be so hard.
the mind conflicts with the heart.
logic doesn't make sense.
so,someone asked me just hours ago; "so when youre going to wait until?"
now we're actors on stage, while our friends are our audience.
to some i blatantly reply ARE YOU CRAZY
those whom im truthful to i have no answer for you cos i do not know either.
this has been a rollercoaster ride.oscillating emotions.(my phy C-sigh)
i think i am evil because i do feel like im forcing you to do something
against your will.
so, the same person said "you have your pride"
(*****reality check)
tsk.
the mind has agreed to forget.
then the bomb came. all thanks to the spying skills.
one sentence and the heart takes over.
(like some weakling. see drama where girl clings to guy forever and ever begging him not to leave)
so hope said hello again.
the cycle repeats itself as the mind and the heart fight to be king.
along with it the human which they control suffers terribly
as emotions go topsy turvy. somewhat like the weather from the eyewall to the eye and back to the eyewall of the hurricane.there were minimal prediction strategies while mitigation was inadequate.maybe i should measure the rainfall to see how deep the puddle of water was.what a joke this is, why should i prove the shallowness of it?
at some point in time response comes into place.
at some point in time some people tell you the truth. wipe away all that blurs your vision.
even if the truth isnt something that you wanna know.
and the heart and mind fight once more. the heart wins. you accept the truth, think you can live with it.
at some point in time things you advise others, falls back to you.
"you told me that last year about....."
things that were meant to console you doesnt console me. no expectations,i am not a zombie..
i am typing nonsense not because i am frustrated but i just feel like im in this neverending circle.like running around the track. and my stamina sucks and i start walking. =.="!
the brain says "i dont know whether i should bother anymore."
but now the heart is king.
the mind conflicts with the heart.
logic doesn't make sense.
so,someone asked me just hours ago; "so when youre going to wait until?"
now we're actors on stage, while our friends are our audience.
to some i blatantly reply ARE YOU CRAZY
those whom im truthful to i have no answer for you cos i do not know either.
this has been a rollercoaster ride.oscillating emotions.(my phy C-sigh)
i think i am evil because i do feel like im forcing you to do something
against your will.
so, the same person said "you have your pride"
(*****reality check)
tsk.
the mind has agreed to forget.
then the bomb came. all thanks to the spying skills.
one sentence and the heart takes over.
(like some weakling. see drama where girl clings to guy forever and ever begging him not to leave)
so hope said hello again.
the cycle repeats itself as the mind and the heart fight to be king.
along with it the human which they control suffers terribly
as emotions go topsy turvy. somewhat like the weather from the eyewall to the eye and back to the eyewall of the hurricane.there were minimal prediction strategies while mitigation was inadequate.maybe i should measure the rainfall to see how deep the puddle of water was.what a joke this is, why should i prove the shallowness of it?
at some point in time response comes into place.
at some point in time some people tell you the truth. wipe away all that blurs your vision.
even if the truth isnt something that you wanna know.
and the heart and mind fight once more. the heart wins. you accept the truth, think you can live with it.
at some point in time things you advise others, falls back to you.
"you told me that last year about....."
things that were meant to console you doesnt console me. no expectations,i am not a zombie..
i am typing nonsense not because i am frustrated but i just feel like im in this neverending circle.like running around the track. and my stamina sucks and i start walking. =.="!
the brain says "i dont know whether i should bother anymore."
but now the heart is king.
怎麼沒有了你 都不對
im in the singing mood.WANNA GO K BOX!
yesterday was a weird day. i woke up at like 7am although i slept at like 2. too excited. =.="!
suddenly i realised that there will be no more 06/07 people in ajc anymore, and i feel a little sad.haha.
went for smu/ntu open house yesterday. hmm. didn't really enquire much about smu cos everyone looked intimidating. ntu people on the other hand were what we expected la. haha weirdly,most of the people who talked to us were kind of weird.my vocab is limited to the word "weird" because i got only B for gp. tsk tsk. (why do some people laugh at my B grade for GP)
i have no idea what im going to apply for. can't get in popular schs such business,law(which i will apply if i have gotten good results:p).and FASS--> geog? limited career options. communication studies-->journalism? can i get in? hmmm. SMU seems scary to me because i am a quiet person who doesn't ask any questions at all!hahaha.
after the open house i went for dinner with jelly,zw,ww,and their fren jeremy.which is a SUPER WEIRD COMBI. feels like some trap. and i had the sudden urge to SHOOT jelly's slowness and chinese. =.="! pls accept my sincere apologies. hahaha SHES GOING TO BE MY ROOM MATE IF I GO TO NUS!
then jelly left.
then it was a MAFIA outing with loy,darren,xq. teo disappeared again. =.="!
WEIRDLY, i had no appetitie for the whole day and i was forced to eat like 5 meals that day.wanted to go to one fullerton's bakerz inn.omg, weirdly it was not there already. before that they didn't know that village was closed too. so we ate at the esplanade. and after that ate at thomson's hk cafe.
LOY.
LOY.(trying to act gay)
loy's creation
xq!
forced to eat again.-.- abit tak glam this pic hahaha.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
bombarded by calls and smses today. haha thanks all :D
my results not very good la but im quite satisfied with it.
gp:B
math:B
geog:B
econs (H1): E
phy:C
yes.
prelims i got like EUSUU. finally dare to declare to the world. hahahaha.
went out with classmates then with "7-up person" HAHHAAH IDIOT KNOW EVERYDAY SAY I STUPID.fine fine.nice dinner though!should be going to NUS FASS. tsk.MUAHAHA SHEARES HALL?????????? lol.
my results not very good la but im quite satisfied with it.
gp:B
math:B
geog:B
econs (H1): E
phy:C
yes.
prelims i got like EUSUU. finally dare to declare to the world. hahahaha.
went out with classmates then with "7-up person" HAHHAAH IDIOT KNOW EVERYDAY SAY I STUPID.fine fine.nice dinner though!should be going to NUS FASS. tsk.MUAHAHA SHEARES HALL?????????? lol.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
http://www.asofterworld.com
guess what i seriously feel like doing.
going back to the start.
be happy.
so friday's the day.sigh. stressed. people keep telling me that i can do it. =.= (oops lulu hates this sign) shall use it less often. i dont know why but lulu has become like a bro/sis to me hahahah omg lulu is going to be pretty disgusted when lulu reads this. tsk. i feel like going for a short holiday like to take a short break from this horrible world. anybody wanna come with me? OR MAYBE I JUST WANNA RUNAWAY FROM MY TERRIBLE RESULTS.
iceskating tmr!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
unexpectedly, some new scandal made me ultra excited.damn nice trying to help people. lol! TRYING is the keyword. hahahaha damn funny!!!
wanting to write about growing up, abit lack of inspiration after all that talking. tsk.
losing a loved one made me think quite alot. maybe im still in the DENIAL stage.
growing up
1) EXPECTATIONS
people expect you to handle some stuff professionally,behave in the same manner, talk about the same things. like what i read somewhere, i think it was the little prince, about grown ups talking about how much their houses cost and they will comment about how beautiful it will be even without the adults describing how they look like. i have been on earth for 19 years, and there are still many things i cannot do. like lighting a matchstick (laugh.=.=) then when you look old, people do not tolerate you as much as before. tsk.
2)PRETENCE
this all leads to pretence. pretending we know. pretending to be what we want to be when we're not. pretending to carry out different things that people expect us to know. when i say i don't know, im probably not lying or being humble. I REALLY DON'T. haha. and adults, oh man, comprises of er mainly hypocrites.
3)BEING MORE MATERIALISTIC
all about class. simplified caste system. brands. having friends with similar thinking. having friends with branded stuff. branded friends =.="! haha.
4)YOUR INNER CHILD
my inner child is =.= totally young. though im kinda old. im like super dependent. i cannot accept death. i cannot accept many things that are happening. i avoid change. but i realised that the world forces you to accept change (like taking someone away from you).
hahahaa thought of so much as they were praying. i was like daydreaming.
things i wanna do: top of my list: go on holiday to relax.
SURVIVE FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i wanna go iceskating on thurs.
one comment that i read today which i think is funny:
my self righteousness is screaming NO while my inner bimbo is whispering yes.
HAHAHAH SUPER DIAO that was in response to the edison scandal.
OHYA AND I HAVE TO THANK LULU*.
SUPER IMPORTANT PERSON THESE FEW DAYS.
piong asked me a question. which set me thinking. hahahaha.just had to add this line.to remind myself tt im stupid.
Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
wanting to write about growing up, abit lack of inspiration after all that talking. tsk.
losing a loved one made me think quite alot. maybe im still in the DENIAL stage.
growing up
1) EXPECTATIONS
people expect you to handle some stuff professionally,behave in the same manner, talk about the same things. like what i read somewhere, i think it was the little prince, about grown ups talking about how much their houses cost and they will comment about how beautiful it will be even without the adults describing how they look like. i have been on earth for 19 years, and there are still many things i cannot do. like lighting a matchstick (laugh.=.=) then when you look old, people do not tolerate you as much as before. tsk.
2)PRETENCE
this all leads to pretence. pretending we know. pretending to be what we want to be when we're not. pretending to carry out different things that people expect us to know. when i say i don't know, im probably not lying or being humble. I REALLY DON'T. haha. and adults, oh man, comprises of er mainly hypocrites.
3)BEING MORE MATERIALISTIC
all about class. simplified caste system. brands. having friends with similar thinking. having friends with branded stuff. branded friends =.="! haha.
4)YOUR INNER CHILD
my inner child is =.= totally young. though im kinda old. im like super dependent. i cannot accept death. i cannot accept many things that are happening. i avoid change. but i realised that the world forces you to accept change (like taking someone away from you).
hahahaa thought of so much as they were praying. i was like daydreaming.
things i wanna do: top of my list: go on holiday to relax.
SURVIVE FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i wanna go iceskating on thurs.
one comment that i read today which i think is funny:
my self righteousness is screaming NO while my inner bimbo is whispering yes.
HAHAHAH SUPER DIAO that was in response to the edison scandal.
OHYA AND I HAVE TO THANK LULU*.
SUPER IMPORTANT PERSON THESE FEW DAYS.
piong asked me a question. which set me thinking. hahahaha.just had to add this line.to remind myself tt im stupid.
Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
not going for theory today since it's at night and i havent finish studying it! tsk.results day= friday 230 pm. suddenly numb.
someone sent me this yesterday taken from a book:
Our shared sense of cosmic yearning
Has turned this into a suprasensual union
Liften above Earth's space-time.
But if in the cosmo's vast dust-pan
Man's history is but a speck,
And a man's history but a speck
Of a speck of that speck,
Then what chance has this,
Our one hour
Against Time's merciless obliteration?
Only the lover's bold impulse
To pull it out in time
And fix it upon
An eternal star.
.
i wonder if my interpretation of it is correct. hahahaha.
someone sent me this yesterday taken from a book:
Our shared sense of cosmic yearning
Has turned this into a suprasensual union
Liften above Earth's space-time.
But if in the cosmo's vast dust-pan
Man's history is but a speck,
And a man's history but a speck
Of a speck of that speck,
Then what chance has this,
Our one hour
Against Time's merciless obliteration?
Only the lover's bold impulse
To pull it out in time
And fix it upon
An eternal star.
.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
leapt the year by getting a job at aspn senior delta school.
she asked me to describe myself. my answer was stupid. i will have to travel to tiong bahru every morning starting monday. I HAVE TO REACH THERE BY 7.40 am OMG LA. but JIAYOU MAN, I CAN DO IT :D! (hopefully)
SAFFRON HILL APPRECIATION DINNER.
omg la, yuhan won first prize at the lucky draw. like $150 isetan voucher! and she was like "lim ai yi, you'll never know" =.= before the name was drawn..
haha saffron hill's welfare is still the best :D
We always knew that it'd come to this.
It's times like these I forget what I miss.
Matters of heart are hard to address.
Especially when yours is full of emptiness.
And it's quite alright.
And goodbye for now.
Just look up to the stars,
and believe who you are,
'cause it's quite alright.
And so long, goodbye.
she asked me to describe myself. my answer was stupid. i will have to travel to tiong bahru every morning starting monday. I HAVE TO REACH THERE BY 7.40 am OMG LA. but JIAYOU MAN, I CAN DO IT :D! (hopefully)
SAFFRON HILL APPRECIATION DINNER.
omg la, yuhan won first prize at the lucky draw. like $150 isetan voucher! and she was like "lim ai yi, you'll never know" =.= before the name was drawn..
haha saffron hill's welfare is still the best :D
aiyi is still as funny, jia hui was shooting her guess watch la dotsssss.
"best fwwween" doesn't seem that horrible too. aggie still looks like piong:p OKAY SHALL NOT POST PIONGS UNGLAM PICS HERE, BUT ITS ON FACEBOOK :p HAHAHHAHAHA.
didn't know ann siang is like behind amoy street... tsk tsk we decided to roam club st/ann siang bla... expensive stuff and accessories in a fridge. tsk. these places make people more materialistic :p AND SORRY I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED XIAN CAI'S EXIT PIC.
and finally met LULU* hahahaha to exchange $20 notes. wth, looks like we're exchanging drugs or something tsk tsk. so secretive use envelope somemore. hahaha. SO 29 FEB WAS QUITE MEMORABLE. :D
We always knew that it'd come to this.
It's times like these I forget what I miss.
Matters of heart are hard to address.
Especially when yours is full of emptiness.
And it's quite alright.
And goodbye for now.
Just look up to the stars,
and believe who you are,
'cause it's quite alright.
And so long, goodbye.
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