EMO.

nice evening.
i took a long walk home today, perhaps NOT THAT LONG, but long for my standards :p ! anyway i walked past my old school. and yes, i miss it. although i hated it because of the school name and bla omg im going to repeat everything again. but anyway, it suddenly occurred to me that although many things have changed, im still me. maybe there're new people, friends and all, maybe different lifestyles, but im still me INSIDE haha. these few months have been crazy, i sense abit of pretence in myself which now i think i should be ashamed of. seriously the walk was fruitful. i was like walking on half the circumference of the school maybe. but the route, which i used to run so many rounds the school on, and i didn't complain, really brought back many memories. seriously, i felt like crying when i saw the old classroom blocks and remembered the old days. maybe graduation- the long awaited graduation is knocking on my door once again, so it spurred some emo-ness. even the HODs' room brought back certain memories, the field, fitness area, classrooms, assembly area/netball court, hall, home econs block -.-,even the D&T block which still gave me the creeps! haha. AND OF COURSE THE VOLLEYBALL COURTS which i remember watching with one or two friends at the classroom block,spying on some people who were training. lol.
and even the macs or market that we went after netball trainings! omg no one cared about the fats la stupid! HAHAHA. and although yes people laughed at me alot especially the netballers.hey you can see that they're like genuinely nice people and a fun bunch to be with.(although i get a little bit traumatised in the end.netball is like one whole big story itself.)

maybe it was the random talk that i had with bear last night. he talked about politics. oh man and how separated 4/1 was. or maybe how separated 2/2 was. politics did exist. but were damn young and innocent too. i really wonder how could we befriend someone and in a few hours talk like we're best friends bla as compared to now: people have their own best friends, their own lives and their past. maybe that's why i love to catch up with old friends, not that i want to live in the past or anything but it's always good to remember. and maybe have a taste of that innocence that all of us used to have.maybe it's the responsibility that all of us have to shoulder now cos we're all grown up and stuff.

some people disappoint me along the way. how deep i thought they were, but they weren't. but some people i remember them for ever cos of small things that make me super touched. im glad i talked to mich tan after so long. and guess what i know they won't see this but i seriously think this people are damn important in shaping who i am now:black cat zhiyen,hock,aunty beautiful,bear,lily,yip,ryan so. good friends i may have along the way but it's always good to go back to these people who have seen me for at least the past 5 years. :D

and i don't know seriously. the exams are coming and everyone from my batch is gone, literally. the attitude to it is :WHATEVER! i will strive for the best from today. and maybe some people should realise now that i'm not a dao or cool person i'm just a random villager living in a village somewhere. nor am i rich. nor am i highly cultured. i seriously don't want to be materialistic or be influenced by other people anymore. i hate techno btw so i guess i'll stick to my own type of music.

just a random note. please take that look off your face.(maybe looks on your faces)
the "why are you here"
"you're so stupid"
faces please disappear.


i think i should go and mug now. actually im surviving well in my class everything's fine except the work.on a lighter note, the whole depression thing last year is over and now i should be experiencing the "rainbow after the rain". tsk tsk. ajc netballers are also a fun bunch suddenly i miss them quite alot i don't know why i keep posting ugly pictures of them to disturb them. all for fun haha don't be angry.LOL. damn emo damn emo damn emo!

lastly, i still admire david ong and edwin goi's bo chap attitude. i salute you all man. haha. oh and uncle wenyan's "hokkien and uncle-ish" style. my new idol!!

GOODBYE AND THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME WHINE. ooops.

old times.

tata!