meeting older people always makes you think about the future. not older, as in OLDer. but maybe working adults, people who graduated. they have their own careers, cars,life.. i can't forsee myself in 10 years' time. wait, i dont even need ten years to be a working adult. in 3 years time probably. two different career paths to take, which one would i take? would i end up with these 2 options that i choose, or maybe i gave up one along the way? or would i have given up studying altogether?!

i dont like to hear people classify me as someone whos from MASS COMM. personally to me these two words do have some -ve connotation attached to them HAHA. i think i need someone similar to be by my side. maybe a best friend, maybe a bf, maybe a gf (hahaha kidding). someone with common interests, or just understands whatever im doing, or maybe just shows a little bit of concern and confidence in what im doing. i dont like to explain my intentions. and i dont wish to change.

i think i like schools with uniform more (pri/sec/jc) because all of us have common goals.. to battle the EXAM. but now it's kind of different. as we all grow up we live for different things, we have too much experience in something and we have to uphold this "reputation" in a sense we have to continue to show people we're good in it. we have too many friends around, be it acquaintances, good friends, best friends to sincerely bother about another person. people come and go.

i seriously love songs by james morrison! you make it real! super nice! and..
this song: once i was little

Used to feel so strong
Even when they tell me,
tell me I was wrong
That I can't live
in a magic world
Cause it's time
for me to grow up
That I got to be
like the rest of them
When I know
there acting up ohh


the lyrics.oh-so-true.
i really hope one day i can be in some foreign land, with my loved ones, sipping tea bla perhaps the tea would feel damn shiok in a winter setting.. and there will be my favourite songs playing. maybe time wont stop for me but at least i will stop to savour that time of my life.


and wth i wanted to write down what i wanted to do "if i were a boy". hahaha. shall write tt another day.