WE VOTED FOR EARTH HOUR YESTERDAY.

irritating darkness.

random stuff over the week:

interesting calendar

in julia tan's car on the way to coldplay


COLDPLAY's concert.too many people!

BLUR.

yesterday at garett's house.wii, FAIL, again!

attempted to cook with zhiwei,garett,char,delfine,mcChristopher.

well garett did the chicken,zhiwei the soup hahaha.

high tech.

the product.

then it was dvd watching.watched sexdrive, haha was quite funny la. played one round of mini mahjong and a damn irritating intellectual game -.-. haha which the girls got no points. damn irritating. and staying in bukit timah is shiok and feels like overseas. SIANZZZ! that's all. mugging day! two projects due! omg.

haha kinda relieved that i know how to celebrate my 21st already! it shall be a girl's night out for the first night. okay after that i dont know haha. i want EVERYTHING to be combined together. so 3 days of celebration plsssssss i think so! hahah it shall be jc girls first, then others, then family on the actual day? haha i sound like im marginalizing the OTHERS group. but i guess none should be very enthusiastic about my birthday since parties are neverending this year. i just told someone i wont party last night. guess the fickleness never changes.

i think life is really like that. you gotta learn, but why can't i wear that stupid L plate like her in that picture. i don't know who i want to become, ain't i too old for metamorphosis? still trying to find my identity to whom i should become? cos recently i really don't know who i wanna become, or who i really am. a part of me wants to be really wild and just live with the times, live like there's no tomorrow. i go out with this friend (haha i think you all know who) and ya man be DARK AND TWISTED AND the people around me will be all DEAD DRUNK or DANCING somehow.or ACTING WEIRD.and DEFYING ALL THE NORMS. doesn't help when some acquaintances are actually friends of acquaintances and they suddenly form one whole big circle. THEN one side of me wants to be a "ZHAI NU".just stay at home and slack, be family oriented perhaps. thousand and one people doing it so why cant i. maybe i can improve myself in some skill or something, perhaps learn a new language or mug doubly hard. BUT IT IS SO NORMAL. being part of the norm, following life STEP BY STEP isn't what i really want. though i dont want to deviate from the crowd too much. it's so hard to be in the middle. and already two guys asked me if im into flings. WALAU LOOK AT MY FACE I LOOK LIKE IM INTO FLINGS MEH. haha!obviously NO. why isit so hard to grow up.or rather grow old.


someone told me that you are like really influenced by the FIVE TOP FRIENDS that you hang out with. i discussed with sam the other day , i just have to change. increase brain power or something, and hang out with the right people. TO IMPROVE. ya thats right.

cx says:
heard u gonna go aussie find husband!
cx says:
so fierce
mel says:
WALAU
mel says:
shakes head
mel says:
this is getting OUT OF HAND

THIS IS REALLY GETTING OUT OF HAND!

am i crazy cos all i want is the best for you; though the idea sounds crazy but youre good for each other!

liyan's party was a blast. nice penthouse with a balcony that oversees the skyline of orchard! cheryl tong the usual one who disturbs me.haha. dont know what will happen if i really have a party. played bridge in nus at 12 AT NIGHT! wat the hell. haha. feels terribly sick i just cant get to sleep these few days, maybe too many things bugging my mind. clear the clutter!!

little peiyong says hi!hahaha!

im supposed to look like this blue(supposedly my colour) thingy hahaha bugs???

jim thompson. hmmm. doesn't ring a bell hahaha.

hardrock cafe last night, kumar was super funny! assignments assignments assignments!

shall nap first!

it has come to a stage where i know where you're going, i don't bother to ask, cos im not really interested and whatever youre going to tell me won't be pleasing to my ears. haha.

hey you little thing, can you not look so sad.
"every tear you shed is a blade to my heart".someone got this message which i thought was so cheesy that it could bring some cheer to another.haha i think i was wrong.

you are like this guy. surrounded by the dark yet to me you seem to be radiating in the midst of darkness. it makes you more intriguing and perhaps become the exception. it's so difficult to explain and i doubt there are any theories to shed the light of how i see you, it's difficult. im sure it is no longer the sweet feeling of wanting to see you; more of an invisible force that sparks my inquisitive nature of digging deeper. you see, unlike this picture you get a choice to get out of this darkness, but you choose not to. one side of me thinks that its strong of you to fight for what you want, the other side of me thinks that you, mixing with all those stupid people in the darkness wont get you anywhere.

the bitching gets worse. hahaha great to find like-minded people in school.
FINALLY!

it has finally come to the day that we have been waiting for; the day where one of us can fetch the other in a dream that didn't really seem possible in 07. when one feared for one's life as one's life was in the hands of the other. pardon the dramatic language, im trying very hard to make my paragraphs seem dramatic, and writing has become a chore. seems like you have to compromise your writing style to get good marks. im seriously considering switching back to geography.

k laaaaaaa anyway yesterday we were all in danger. fzw's seriously crazy circling in dempsey was really super dangerous.

i need to find my fun and games and laughter and happiness. soon. grrr.

i dont know whether i should be horribly pissed or whatever, but still, hearing what someone said about the school im in now is a school for the masses, raises many questions to be asked. not literally about the school itself, but about how this person's brain fuctions. someone who is not satisfied with whatever we have, first in a place scale, then in a national scale, and now on an international scale. hahaha im using new geographical terms by the way. seriously, at first it was about the school he is in, then it was the universities in sg, then now it is about the universities all around the world.

someone who wants to be different seems so juvenile? something mainstream isn't nice to him? just because it appeals to the masses? that is seriously so juvenile. *blehhhhh and sticks out tongue.:p HAHAHA*

“What can I say about journalism?
It has the greatest virtue and the greatest evil.
It is the first thing the dictator controls.
It is the mother of literature and the perpetrator of crap.
In many cases it is the only history we have, and yet
it is the tool of the worst men. But over a long period of time
and because it is the product of so many men,
it is perhaps the purest thing we have.
Honesty has a way of creeping in even when it was not intended.”
- John Steinbeck

hoho in ntu now!

RECENT STUFF:

jiayi's birthday party!

darren's damn cool car.

cleo's 21st! super cool house (with lift,basement!)



hahaha freak pic. taken by his fren. dots.

samantha's 21st! first square one project!

titus her super cute cousin!

& julia,piong and i went for nus jazz concert, dessert at 2am, watched 3 movies this week!

first with NM 2216 people jiamin and sarah, he's just not that into you; kl,pink panther 2, last one --> julia & kl, MARLEY AND ME! omg that show. tear jerker man! JOSEPH'S PARTY WILL BE ON FRIDAY. OMG LA!

it is seriously such a waste that heath ledger is gone.

1) jiayi's surprise birthday party
spoilt it with my AIYO. damn! hahaha suelynn din hold the door for jiayi and it banged him la SORRY. hahaha.

2) cleo's birthday party, random outing with sec sch people.
i dont get their jokes? haha. and some of them i haven't seen them for a long time. TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE MAN. totally realised that today, so i should try to stop acting like sec sch times. (what's with my seemingly demure look today that i try to portray. fail la! haha quoting fzw)

3) dinner with fzw and random 'starbuck-ing' with his army mates.


more birthday parties to come I AM SO BROKE. shall upload pics soon.
HAHAHA PEOPLE I DONT LIKE 5 YEARS AGO I STILL HAVE REASONS TO DISLIKE THEM NOW! WTH! this person still makes my blood boil......................................................and i've become more short tempered somemore. damn! OH WELL~!

TH NETBALL 2009.

that's what i wrote for the IHG web:

17 February 2009. 1900 hours. The netball finals started with a blast of cheer from both halls. The Temasek netballers were defending the title that they won the previous IHG, which broke Eusoff’s near 20 year streak.


The first quarter comprised of Eliza, Amelia as shooters; Hanisah, Bridget,Weilin in the mid-court; Jiamein and Melissa (er yes,me) in defence. There was flow in the attack, with the balls passed well and both shooters putting in all their shots. The defence was effective, and the Eusoff netballers felt the pressure. The Eusoffians made switches to the attack during the several injury time that they called, but proved to be not very effective as the Temasek flow was not interrupted.


Changes to the main seven was minimal, with Cheryl put in mid-court. All the players did well, with Eliza doing amazing splits and accurate shooting; Bridget sprinting and dodging to get all the balls; Jiamein was constantly tipping and intercepting. Cheryl, Eliza and Amelia made good use of their basketball background in passing sudden passes and doing stunts that well, shocked the opponent. The score was kept to a draw at the end of the third quarter. The one thing that I find that had improved from the preliminaries was the defence in the goal circle, where the Eusoff GA had to keep making second passes to the WA/C to get closer to the pole to shoot, which it proved to be an opportunity created for Temasek.


The last quarter started with a draw. The first combination was used, and Eusoff scored the first goal. Temasek, as a team with IVP players from basketball, squash, badminton and netball, speed and stunts are not problems. However, with the intensity of the game, stepping, wild passes allowed Eusoff to pull the gap. Another point to note is that Eusoff had many experienced players- IVP netball players (both past and present). I would say that Temasek did not give up till the end; it was the drive to win that caused the anxiety to kick in, which allowed Eusoff to get the gold. Eusoff won 22-16.


Temasek netball did not get the title this year, but I do not think that we did not gain anything. It may be clichéd to say that we have gained experience and that we should train hard now and get back the title next year but yes, I do think we gained something. I think we have come a long way from a team which did not know what stepping is, to one that actually fought hard and almost won Eusoff (IVP PLAYERS!!!).


The seniors in the team, especially Shin and Bridget, have shown us what a netball team in IHG is about. They actually asked me one day, “What do you hope to achieve?” I have always thought that IHG is all fun and laughter, but it is not, it is so much more and I am proud to be in this team. I appreciate the effort that they put in to make me HIGH and PREPARED for the matches. Hanisah has also played an important role as the coach, captain and player for Temasek Netball, and I have also seen her grow since her days of being the AJC netball captain. One more honourable mention is Weilin, with her totally dao face and her never-say-die attitude. There are so many players to mention, like Jiamein, I can write two full pages on how zai she is, but I think all the members in the team have their strengths and a lot of potential (Like Eliza who can seriously consider switching to netball for good). It was a good fight, if you were there, you would have felt it.

That’s all, and it’s up to you now vice-captain BOON YU RU, to get back the title next year.

i said i wont blog but there's this show thats on tv now- away from her.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0491747/

someone you have loved all your life who changes, in a span of 30 days and falls in love with someone else right in front of you. and you cant blame that person or anything.what would you do, stay by her side as she lives on?abandon her and get a new life? and she changes her preferences, isit still the person that you love?

when someone you have loved all your life changes.hmmm.

CRAP ITS 1.07AM 15feb alr!

im going to disappear from this blog for a while after this post. *poof*!seeya.hope we win KR on monday!
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i think this toy is cool man!okay anyway we went to the toy museum this valentine's day, the trip lasted half an hour and we almost took more time to get there rather than look at the exhibits. sigh!

ONLY ONE KNOWN TO EXIST IN THE WORLD.

we had korean at suntec, haha abit too long and spicy and carnivorous.

8 years. that's a long long time. imagine the stuff that we've missed. jc life,changing perceptions, hobbies, life events, difficult to summarize.

THE COUPLE OF THE DAY!!! :D :D

P.S: arcade was super exciting though.hahaha.

there were like 12 of them but the group pic's with them!
time to start studying though.

watashiwa... watashiwa..
OMG i can only say watashiwa sin ga por en jin des, anatawa ni hon jin des ka?

hello i dont even know whether the spelling is right.
hahaa! but still i brought this group of jap students around, high school students.
yup and all guys in my group. at first they were damn enthu to see me(or appears to be)
but our LANGUAGE BARRIER IS REALLY.......
i cant speak japanese, they cant speak english. luckily two of our groups combined and wei han spoke to them ! haha.

sadly, i wanted to go iceskating but three of the guys decided that they wanted to bowl.
okay then. haha first game i was leading all the way until the last frame some guy "striked"so i lost by 2. haha second game i won lorrrrrrr. lol! their expression/exclamation when they didnt play well was damn funny. DAMN ANIMATED.

then it was esplanade,citylink mall, far east, dfs? hoho and they gave me a valentine's day present! lol which i dont know what isit cos i left it in hall and once again it's in jap.


YESTERDAY'S friendly against ajc. not bad i think it was much better as compared to the first match. i think i have more confidence,maybe the whole team has more confidence in getting into the finals. yay. but i think i m going to be sick. blah.

shall read some tabloid and then notes. lol.

today we were introduced to two people who were working in the media industry, or rather for both media powerhouses in sg. one of them is a broadcast journalist/sports/biz bla i can't remember, (too many areas) while the other is a photo journalist. For the first speaker he was really the typical media person, outspoken, good looking (make witty jokes too), he gave a positive image of journalism in sg of course. However the one that really hit me was the photojournalist. sadly, he picked on me in class by asking me what is the difference between journalism and photojournalism. which i said was the difference in the way the story is told, one by words and one by pictures. and i think he wanted the answer i said, cos it seriously was a one-sided viewpoint of what photojournalism is that is perceived by many.

he showed us pictures he took during the SARS period, many of them hit me greatly. maybe it was what he said about the people, who showed emotion, even though they were wearing masks, or maybe it was the courage of the healthcare workers, or the pain of the patients, or maybe just being so close to the incident, getting a whole view of it just made it feel so miraculous. and there was one picture which he said needed a caption to tell the story behind these two nurses beside a bed, which was of another nurse who passed away due to the virus. and how those who left us, their friends and relatives didn't have a proper closure due to the handling of the remains to prevent the outbreak from worsening.

http://www.bryanv.com/

hmmm. do i really have the courage to be a journalist? i was rather turned off by the pictures, by fear of course. and he actually covered the tsunami? i dont think i even want to cover any bad incident that happened in sg. i think i shall stick to my "magazine editor" dream.

revertigo;
When you see people from your past,

you start acting like you did when you used to spend time with them

(As made popular by the character of Marshall Erikson on an April 2008 episode of CBS sitcom "How I Met Your Mother". )

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

intellectual day... says:
aiex, y leh
intellectual day... says:
cos its sup to be one of the few things u're good at arh

interhall games have started today.(tutorials too but wth!)
though TH won by such a large margin, i can only say that I SUCK AT NETBALL. yes i dont train hard i can only blame myself, but it is still very disappointing and im like angry with myself, mostly disappointed. but what can i do. train harder ???yeah train harder. but how i can like deprove to such a stage i really think im lousier than some non-sports person who have like never played netball before.


OHMYGOD do you know why i feel like that! ?

i feel like im more of a liability than help.

:(

and we had picnic yesterday anyway.