The way im spending money is seriously not funny. from like next week i better save $ ! no more shopping! cept for saffie/diana's presents.

haha!the whole school thinks david and i are a couple cos we go home tgt and come to sch tgt and eat lunch tgt. and we have the same phone! when my student asked me about it today i shouted EWWWW and said damn gross HAHAHAHA. canteen aunty asked me why i only bought one plate of rice "the other teacher didn't come ah" DOTSSSSS. some student saw david and i at newyorknewyork and provided more "EVIDENCE" but come on, it's david ong!HAHAHAHAHAHAA! LALALALALALA. he is going to kill me if he sees this. to give him credit though, HE IS SUPER FUNNY LA FAINTSSSSS.

im listening to 我们的歌 by 王力宏. bought his album last night hahaha he is the ultimate shuai ge la! LOL!

david said im VERY MATERIALISTC. omg, wanted to die. well, his definition of materialistic is kinda weird anyway.tsk! we were laughing at students whose portfolio's included "cutting vegetables". you may think it's evil to laugh at them at stuff, but really, if you imagine those pictures in your portfolio, you will faint la. haha! david ong's like HIGH everyday wth. super kisiao~ oooooops! you seriously will want to laugh at his stupid face :p ! HAHAHAHAHA!

the whole of today i was typing mcq for the web thingy called HOT POTATO for the school. i completed ALL in a day, im also amazed myself. haha! anyway last night i reached a state of peace seriously. the rain just stopped, i sat beside the window on the bus, listened to jazz. seriously serene. mad right! yes...

think i need a new job, feeling stagnant already.
MEL FU IS REFLECTIVE, YET HAPPY!! WTH?! HAHAHA!

HELLO LULU! RANDOM!:D

my interview flopped.
they made me come out with this statement:
the confidence in arranged marriages will decrease with time.
and they gave me another statement and told me to prove them. omg,
im like supposed to study that when i get in right? tsk.

then the inflation question, i told them natural increase and natural disaster (and said that im a geog student so we learnt that in geog -.-) DIE.
the gay question -.-
then the last part i said "no questions, i will ask when i get here" and they replied "so confident?"
i was omg-ing all the way.

watched step up 2 with sam again!
shopped w david!
anyway today im amazed. there's this boy who has down syndrome and autism. he cannot understand what people say. but he can read and then carry out the instructions.

"Gibson does not sit on the stage."
"Gibson sits on the floor."
and he will move!OMG! anyway i helped out with JANITORIAL lessons today. -.-
wiping/sweeping. dots right? oh ya and i went back to ajc last night. not bad, i really miss school lots.

okay..............................................
hope to go home soon.waiting for that stupid mr.ong who is marking his papers upstairs.
and guess what, i saw goi the other day. OMG~
-.-

talked to one of my friends last night and he asked me to get the answer,get over with it and not waste time like him. then i told him i don't even need that one last shot because it's all in the past and all. and now im trying to convince myself that my above sentence is true.

anyway our sec sch semi outing failed terribly last night! tsk.
over the weekend:

• shopping/makan-ing with zw,jelly, wenyan(darren joined for a while, weird combi haha!)
• jelly made me wait for 2 hours for her smu interview!
• class outing yesterday. orange balloons (looks at peiyong) HAHA. slow reaction at MIND cafe (looks at wenyan :p okay i quite slow also) and violent behaviour (looks at xx). went to the marks and spencer cafe plus ate at an indonesian restaurant at centrepoint! JULIA DROVE ME! omg la. sigh.

smu interview soon. damn scared.

aiyo my neighbour thinks im dao. sigh!

i wonder how much time was spent waiting last night. such a disappointment! haha so charissa redskinnyjeans has this "damn cute" friend, and he made us wait for like 45 min-1 hour. US included bryant loh JR zw. tsk. like really STONED outside guess at taka. then we walked around aimlessly trying to wait for brian chen. haha! went to clarke quay after that and wth, timbre was full. like obviously it'll be full. yup anyway we ate at boat quay. which er... IM IMPRESSED AND YET ASHAMED cos everyone knows what they're going to do especially JR and his dreams and bla and it makes me feel old and that i haven't accomplished anything! haha we had this teachers' talk and the others were abit dots about it. i am also amazed by his passion for geography!! OHMAN. haha.don't know why but i think i fell asleep during the ride back home. long mrt rides have become another source for my sleep. that's a bad thing since i jerked in the afternoon HAHAHA.

meeting jelly later!

ohya anyway david and i were discussing ELITISM even in a special school. there's streaming and one of my students told me how she cannot communicate with the track 3 students. even in the track 3 class there's a disparity. which is shocking, but true.

man, im sitting in the level staff room alone typing out questions for their examination and two students just came in to get the answers from me (cos i did the other one wrongly haha). it's quite sad when they ask me whether im coming on monday. think i understand why a teacher has her favourite class and stuff. im actually feeling a little dots that i m taking leave on mon, the last day im going to teach in that class, cos of the smu interview. sigh. hope the outing later will make me happier. haha.

the aggressive girl says: try to tell teh others that i will try go online on tue the aggressive girl says: cos tue my hol the aggressive girl says: every other day got lesson OKAY MEET SANDHYA ONLINE ON TUESDAYS. (AFTERNOON) BTW HER TIME THERE IS LAGGING BY TWO AND A HALF HOURS. DOTS,she's some superstar ah!=.= badminton cca today.caught in the rain! tsk.funny people. role play.post pics when im not so sian. haha.

I MISS YOU SANSAN! READ ABOUT HER! SHE FINALLY POSTED! HAHAHAHA.
http://www.whereisourlove.blogspot.com


Numeracy (math) class. we baked cookies! i helped this group. at first there was this heart shaped one. but the recipe was dots. so.. haha! we did the cookies in the canteen btw.

more pictures that we took at zhiwei's house. like the second one. damn random. SITI IS SO VIOLENT. KHENGLIM TOO. I AM SOOOOOOOO PITIFUL :p majella tagged a vase as melissa. well, zhiwei tagged a cat. sad. now they are trying to involve me in their fight. dots i am so innocent and extra.

oh man, lulu gave me 15 min to complete what i wanna write here. sigh.

today david told me what he felt about me drifting along in life. because of my lack of aspirations, lack of goals, the lack of understanding of myself. i cannot relate to people like him who plan,work hard, and achieve. first of all, i don't even know what i want. isit arts? isit science? isit business? and im supposed to have more long-term goals. what do i want my life to be like? i can imagine myself doing something that i like actually, but it is such a far-fetched goal. but seems like it is my only dream for now, and im going to work hard to achieve it. omg, mellow mel. mellow mellow mellow. before i even get into university im thinking like a lao pok already. maybe the big 2 is really taking its toll on me. WAIT, IM STILL 19!!!damn the people who say im 20, or remind me constantly.

shall call lulu now.

when it all seems to change.

friendship,kinship,love,jobs,interests,dreams.
how can my fickleness be compared to this ever-channging world?
by choosing like all 3 schools, all 3 extremely different courses as first choice for each school, shows how confused i am!

where are my dreams?
WHAT are my dreams?
where do i go from here?
a whole new life, with a bunch of new friends, and new interests?
drift with the crowd, get a degree, find a job, pay the bills.
live my life,the normal way?

ORDINARY.

OHKAY IM MAD I JUST DELETED MY FIRST CHOICE-> COMM.STUDIES DUE TO MY LACK OF CONFIDENCE AS A SPEAKER. AND I WANT TO AVOID THOSE INTIMIDATING PEOPLE THERE. MELISSA THE ENGINEER. WTH!


better in time -leona lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time


真奇怪. 这首歌,听了好想哭
cheena people for cheena course. here i come! >:(

time flies. these two words sum it all up. our lives, so different. our school, such a long time ago. pe lessons, history.netball trainings, can't remember the pain. (i am afraid i will pull the team down, and tts why i dont go back, i am not kidding)

can you please tell me why.
and then tell me are we going to continue to be like this.


alright, alright.

lunch with jelly,weiwei,zhiwei. shopped. bought a espirit jacket. sigh. i must save money from now on. random lao yan pic, no more coffeeshop coffee! HAHAHA.

let me start the blog post with a random shot of the sunset. it's like taken at my doorstep. i wonder when we can have picnics at pierce reservoir again. maybe it'll be one year,maybe two..or maybe five. maybe never again.tsk. i just bought like so much stuff. shopped with david! OMG rite haha. relief teachers shopping spree!

GUESS WHAT, i bought this cd today! why? cos i was mesmerized by her! i was at her concert. thanks lim shuiyong!!! free standing tix, $140 each! anyway, asked samantha (lim) along ! HOHO. shuiyong's fren ryan was there too.he was kinda high la. hahaha. anyway my favourite song is "other side of the world" from her first album la. super nice. how i hope our love wouldn't fade, how i wish it was simple.

The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me

please note her guitars. they are so cool. and the part where she recorded her song using some guitar of hers.. that's like so cool man! decided not to take so many pics cos my camera isn't as powerful as ryan's. LOL. shall ask shuiyong to send me the other pics soon.:D

this guitar is oh-so-cool!


her band.they were saying the back-up singer is like prettier.
butKT TUNSTALL IS COOL! OMG!

the damn cute guitarist. LOL.

caught this weird expression on camera.

omg, she told like many super cold jokes la. haha.

and the night ended with suddenly i see! HAHA CROWD FAVOURITE.

she came back for the encore. more of like intermission cos she sang a few

songs afterwards. OH MAN SY AND RYAN GOT TO TAKE PICS WITH HER!!!

met her at food republic. WTH? anyway, i got her autograph too:p THANKS

SHUIYONG AGAIN!!!! AHHAHA!!

today, a boy in my class declared his love for me hahaha. that's kinda scary. okay. he wrote this on the board. er his spelling isn't really good. he made me read this in front of the class and then declared his love. hahah while david was like laughing his head off, seriously!

oh man, i spent alot of money today. BUT YES LA, IM NOT BANKRUPT!!HOHOHO.

KT TUNSTALL ROCKS, HO CHI HOE, AREN'T YOU JEALOUS!!!

we share a cheezel, that's why we're friends. :D SIGH~

so long sansan, we'll miss you.

it's really weird without you around.

(and she won't even read this because of a lack of resources

-->NO COMPUTER for the time being -.-"!)

http://www.whereisourlove.blogspot.com

SCHOOL.
excursion-.- (somewhat) to ntuc!

dont you think issac has some rich kid feel lol. his hair looks damn familiar?

haha. with youying, from my form class..

they were checking out different prices for the different brands..

RANDOM

darren's birthday chalet. damn nice la the place. like some apartment!

one of the group photos we took. :D

more pics to upload because sansan is leaving tomorrow!

went for dinner with her just now plus ice-skating! damn,

i fell down twice so sia suay. the second time, siti came to my rescue by banging into me while im still on the ice, then sandhya put her weight on me so i fell down again. thank you julia tan for helping me up hahahaa. damn it david ong he cursed me la! and what the hell lulu your reply really made me damn disappointed i was so high at first la! tsk tsk. sigh~ upload pics soon they're with weiwei. how random. haha. SIGH! WALKED TO THE BUS STOP WITH SANSAN FOR THE LAST TIME (AT LEAST FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS!)

OMG LAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. :(

potluck at zhiwei's house last night. before that jelly,zw and i watched step up 2! super nice la! super catchy~ haha it became comedy cos i remember braddy yeo putting his hand outside darren's car while blasting "LOW" and singing "apple bottom jeans, boots with the fur"... LOL!!! SUPER BENG LA!!! the whole car was vibrating!!

okay so we were like 1 hour late cos it was raining. and we played a little mahjong,cranium,heart attack! cranium always makes me feel stupid. OOOOH SITI MAKES SUPERB BROWNIES! that were finished by farmer -.-"! SIGH.shall post the group pics when xx comes online. ER HERM ** cough cough. LOL!

ice-skating tmr!!

sometimes i wonder how things changed so much.

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time

nice song. these few days i've been feeling pretty calm, no sudden fluctuation in emotion, just enjoying every hour, especially in the mornings where i have to wake up at an unearthly hour at 6am. i have been late from mon-wed, and for thurs i was kinda motivated to show fellow relief teacher mr.ong that i can be early (for once!).

i have been thinking of my grandma these few days, and i still cannot believe that she is gone, maybe this sounds very cliche, but i guess it's true that she will stay in our memories, and our hearts.

love; innocent love,sisterly love, kinship, romance, love for one's country..
david was telling me that there is something that is similar in everyone, no matter what level of intelligence one has, and it's love. it's natural instinct. then he asked me isit normal people that are complicated or isit the kids there, are they really that simple compared to us? this set me thinking.actually whatever the kids are showing to us in terms of behaviour, it's just an exaggerated form of what we feel. the frustrations, the smiles... when they greet the teachers, it's genuine. i am ashamed of my weak smiles at them. and us being complicated. i guess we are. because of what we go through. because of what we can comprehend. but didn't we start off as innocent little kids too?

haha. i think the past week has been a fulfilling one. everyday david and i will have different comments about the school.confused-->amazed-->motivated! haha. of course there were LOW times too. but their cca day is super fun la. on thursdays, it's like non-competitive and full of SPIRIT! woohoo~ HAHA.

OMG LA I SOUND LIKE SOME OLD AUNTY. anyway, looking forward to:

• ice-skating!hopefully soon before i forget how to ice-skate
• step up 2! if i go tmr :p
• potluck tmr!
• trip to california on 11th june, till 22nd i think!
• visiting margaret if i have the money. I REALLY WANNA GO! :(
• shoppinggggg when i get my pay. 28th 28th 28th!!
• charissa redskinny a.k.a tootsie OWES ME A TREAT!
  

I DONT LOOK FORWARD TO SANDHYA LEAVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, im typing this on word and then transferring it to my blogger account because I am in school now. Things are pretty different and seriously an eye-opener. It’s already my third day and many things have already happened. Such as, boy winking at me which I almost puked out my lunch.. also, I have seen the smartest (They can do word problems!!) and the slowest (They cry when they cannot draw something!) of them all.

The difference is truly amazing, and it makes you feel blessed. Im also lucky that my friend of five years mr. david ong is also here with me as a relief teacher. Or else, I will be so pitiful again (like my previous job). Although the food kinda sucks, it is cheap. Tsk. Why am I typing like this. I think my students think I am boring because I make them do worksheets. Math problems that I myself tend to knock out when I look at them. Sigh, I almost slept during a meeting and also during another math lesson when my mentor was teaching. Haha. Planning lessons seemed fun. Note the past tense.

No, it’s not fun at all.

I have no creative juices (seems to be like it). Okay.i really learnt a lot these few days. Teaching, thinking, interacting.

Enough of my VERY INTERESTING job (not being sacarstic), went to darren’s 21st birthday chalet. His friend is seriously damn funny. Plus I went kbox last night. Although I am like heading for bankruptcy, I predict more fun times to come. HOPEFULLY. Okay, I shall go home now.

P.s: And I don’t want to care about you already.